A new T!!!

Hi...

Had therapy today. It was a good session...except for the fact that my T, who I've been with since 2005 told me that she wasn't comfortable working with the DID. She says she doesn't have enough experience and training to work with this and that she wants me to call the Doc that dx me because she has a referral for me with someone who specializes with DID.

I'm doing okay with this....I think....? I know she's not dumping me. She will see me through the transition. And I know she's only doing this because she cares about me and wants the best for me and my treatment. BUT...James, my most emotionally devastated little (he's 9...maybe not so little is what he wants to say) who gets emotionally attached to anything that exists is now hiding and I can hear him sobbing somewhere far away in my head. Even writing this I feel like I just want to break down into tears.

Amber, my 12 yr old bully is fuming...she doesn't want to go to someone else. We just got comfortable enough to talk about this stuff and come forward and now we have to leave.

We feel like we're being punished. Should've kept our mouths shut...just like our Nurse told us!!

(((Elysium))) , even transitions meant to help can hurt.

(((James))) if ok.....It'll be ok. honest, it will. T is trying to help all of you and not just leaving you. Please believe that. Let yourself be hugged and comforted.

(((Amber))) dono if yuo like hugs or not but it's ok to feel mad about your t . She isn't dumping yuo, she doesnt know enough to try to help. I know that sounds lame, but she cares for all of you.
Raven

I'm sorry that your T feels this way. But it is good for her to admit that she doesn't feel able to work with you. I am glad there is someone available tht can work with DID.

Our T isn't experienced--well wasn't until working with us long term---and sometimes i think we should have gone with someone more experienced. But there is no one available in this area.

It's a mixed bag for sure. Talk to her about how your insiders are feeling and perhaps she can talk with them about this and make a plan with them. It always helps to talk to the littles and youngers and have a plan.

don't know if this helps.
hang in there.

Hugs (((((( Elysium and all )))))))

Gosh! You have a right to feel upset that your T is only just telling you this now after 4 years. But look at this as a step forward, you really do need someone that knows about DID and is able to help you.

Em:

At least your t is being honest with you and not dragging you along just to see if she can help you. your parts have a right to be upset. You did the right thing by telling her about your DID and not keeping it a scaret.

James, I know you are attached to this t. You can cry if you want but know that things will get better with the new t.

(((((((hugs)))))))) for all if you want them.

Thank you everyone for your responses!! I really appreciate it...it helps!!

Our therapist left us after 5 years to move on in her career, so we didn evn have time ta transition...so it was most damagin ta alla us...at least u will have time ta say bye an get things right b4 u move on...which is so important i think...but hey, im "just" a 15 year old alter with tons of experience in bein hurt...whadda i know???

((((())))) Hugs for you if you would like them.

I think you know plenty about plenty!! I'm sorry you didn't get to transition with your T. That is very difficult!! I am lucky in that sense.

Are you with a new T now? How are you liking them?

Take care...

no, we dont have a T yet...although our case mgr is lookin for one for us...our pdoc gave us a name of one but its a guy an we dont do guys well...but that is subject ta change cuz we have a guy case mgr at the hospital an we like him...but not all men r like him...i dont think we r gonna find someone like our last T...she was one of a kind...the kind u dont forget...long after they are gone...