Lost and confused

l know so many go through it but I thought it would never be me. I took care of it all, child, house, lawn and bills. And it wasn't enough. He worked long hours and it seamed it was only me and Gillian. She was/ is my everything. I would cry to him, please hug me, touch me anything! Still nothing. 8 years I have begged for his attention. Thinking his lack of interest was due to his M. S. Till I started watching more closely to all the attention he would give the cats and Gillian ( our girl) We sat down about a month ago and talked about us. He said he hasnt been in love with me for the past 5 years he knows for sure. How do u react to that? I know u can't make someone love u so I pacted my stuff over the next few weeks and left. I let him have everything. But we share our girl. Its not fair I have to become a part time mother because he fell out of love!! I cry myself to sleep most nights. All these years he wouldn't do a thing with us and now he is being super dad when he has her. I'm heart broken over all of this. I know life will go on but it hurts so bad now. I miss not tucking her in every night. All the talking she would do as I put her to bed. And I miss him. 15 years was a long time.

Dang Laura88 that's so tough! I'm so sorry you are going through this. Keep posting and you'll find great support here on PC. I wish you and your family the very best!

I'm so sorry, Laura. I know the pain. I too am recently separated. I sit here wondering why he couldn't have been kinder to me. If he had been, I wouldn't have left. But we don't deserve to have to stay in relationships with men who are unwilling to be good husbands or boyfriends. All we can do is leave and endure the pain for however many months it takes, until it doesn't hurt anymore, and then we'll be free to love again.

I don't have anything that can help you but I am also sorry your hurting. I just wanted to say Im sorry this happened to you and bless your poor heart. Hugs!