Could this be an eating disorder?

Hello everyone!
About 2 months ago I had a reoccurence of depression and whenever I get depressed I lose weight because I have no appetite. The depression has lifted somewhat due to meds, however, I am terrified of gaining back the weight and while I am still not very hungry I am eating a little more. My problem is that I have started vomiting after I eat. I am not binge eating just small to regular sized poritions. The vomiting started as a self-injury thing and it has now become something I feel like I have to do after I eat. I can't stand the way my stomach feels after I eat. If I can't throw up I get very anxious. I don't know what to do about these feelings.
Help?

Yes.. Self injury to your body is definately a problem. Its good that you recognize tthat. The next step would be to get help. Are you currently in counseling? Telling someone in your life is also helpful. Please stay safe.

I think it would be an eating disorder. Even if it wasn't though, it's not healthy.

You sound like you want help, go talk to a school counselor or trusted adult. Don't let it spiral down further, get it early, it's easier to 'nip in the bud'. I hope you can figure things out, good luck.

Thanks esthersvirtue and mortimer!!

I do have a therapist and I have spoken to him about it some, but I think he views it as more of a si thing and since I have been able to overcome my si compulsions that this will probably pass as well, but it doesn't feel the same to me. Although it did start out as a form of self-punishment it isn't really that anymore, or maybe it is... I'm pretty confused and overwhelmed right now. Unfortunately, I won't be able to see my therapist until next week. I ate a small amount this morning and then threw it up and I feel so weak right now and can't quite figure out why I am doing this to myself. My husband wants to go out to dinner tonight and the very thought of it makes me nervous.
Thanks to all of you for listening, I just really needed to get out some of these feelings.

Valcat, you really need to get the physical side of this addressed NOW. I'm very sorry that your T seems to be dismissing this as "merely" a SI thing, because -- while it may be in large part SI related -- the physical consequences can be life threatening! What's more, the immediate consequences are fairly devastating, too. For one thing, without proper nutrition, you can't progress in therapy! Not "won't", not "aren't likely to". You physically can not think when you're in an eating disorder like this. The physical side of it affects your cognitive ability, and you simply cannot progress in therapy until your nutritional status is normalized.

Hard as it is, go see a GP, get checked out -- and then find an ED specialist or someone with more experience with EDs to get evaluated.

If you want a reminder of why it's important to do this, even though you like your current T (which I'm assuming you do), remember this: Terri Schiavo tried to get help for the bulimia which caused her heart failure -- and the doctor dismissed it.

Push your T to hear you. This is not something dismisable! Your body is warning you now what you're doing isn't healthy, so take it's warning. Maybe you can get him to see you earlier. I really hope you can sort this out. : ( Don't let him dismiss it, describe that it may have started out SI related, but it's escalated and it's becoming a weight/body obsession.

If he won't heed what you have to say, go find someone else.

I dont think its very healthy. i understand your feelings behind it. Please talk to your T or Doc and let them know whats going on.

Take care