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I saw one of my caseworkers recently who I hadn't seen since last August or September. She had to comment on how much weight I've gained! Then she focused on it for the next several minutes, and brought it up again later. We met for only a short time, but seriously half of it was her mentioning how much my weight and appearance has changed. I didn't really care to hear that. Now, I don't really care about eating. It almost feels as if I have done something wrong. I almost feel scared.

Inky- do you think maybe she was just trying to compliment you?.. but did it in an insensitive way?

A few years ago one of my brothers said to me-" You've gained weight haven't you- you look so much better". That comment didn't feel like a compliment, it took me a long time to see it that way- but knowing my brother and the circumstances I finally realized he didn't mean anything bad saying what he said- but that was from some one I knew well and saw often. I think it would have been harder for me if someone I didn't know well said that to me-- all kinds of thoughts would have went through my mind.

Sorry you feel bad about it. Please believe-that you haven't done anything wrong.

Mandy

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I know she meant it nicely, like a compliment. What feels wrong is my reaction. I don't care to eat anymore. I am trying, a little. It's just that I know what I am capable of, and it scares me! I am thinking that I just want to be thinner. I miss the way I used to be. I want to see more bone.

Last night I barely ate, and of what I did, it felt like it didn't belong there. It was tempting to get rid of it. I didn't, but the urge and thoughts were there. I really wanted to.

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This is a quote from a news release about eating disorders in preganancy. I'm certainly not pregnant, but this quote hits close to me with what that caseworker said. She is an LCPC no longer doing counseling, instead now doing case management of people with mental/physical disabilities for the State.