[Gemstone]

I am diagnosed with an ED not otherwise specified. I am very low weight and I eat small meals and purge. I have been getting a lot of pain lately when I purge so I am trying to stop. It is so hard and I dont want to go in the hospital as I have never had any luck with it. it seems to make me worse after. Well I recently ordered some diet pills online (phentermine) and I am going to use them in place of purging. It is hard to beleive anyone can go online and order a prescription without a need for it. I am trying not to get under 100 pounds but in reality I want to. What is wrong with me? I feel like such a loser. I have a fiance and a good job but I still can't stop this. Sorry I just wanted to vent.

[MissSurfy]

Hi Gem, I don't know if it is "supportive" to knock something someone is going to do, as long as we know it isn't a good idea??? If not sorry, I hoped it might be... I took phentermine for awhile, not for any "extreme" purpose but to head off a problem with compulsive, neurotic eating that I used to have when visiting my parents (I didn't used to keep any tasty food or easy snacks at all at my own place, so with the selection there in addition to parental stress... you get it).

Anyway, as you may have read the appetite supressant effect of phentermine starts being ineffective for most people within a couple weeks... I read that that is why it's banned or not available in some countries, is considered a waste of time... A friend of mine and I indeed both experienced that.... Also, for me, when it worked it would supress for a few hours but when it wore off, WATCH OUT!!! Craving city, make up for all the forgone food and then some. And, it made me very irritable.

I'll leave out the part about how I'm kind of convinced I did some kind of damage to something in those three months I took it at the average dose, things that continue now, a couple years later, that had never happened before. Because I've never had it looked into and I don't know anything for sure, and mine weren't noted as symptoms/side effects anywhere that I saw.

Sorry if none of this was the right thing to say, but really I wouldn't pin any hopes on phentermine (or its cousin tenuate). I wish you the best in finding your way!

[Genevieve]

Gem, you know that your electrolytes are likely kinda screwy from purging, right? So how come you wanna do that to your body? Wouldn't it be better to -- oh -- I don't know -- maybe work on recovering from youED?

I can understand the whole pdoc thing, but how about trying some of the self-help support groups or books out there? Honestly -- you wanna have a nice, thin corpse? Or maybe a living body that is the right size for you?

I know -- I'm wavering along with my own recovery. it ain't easy, and for every time I actually come close to meeting my food plan, there are six when I don't. It's hard.

I think it's worth it. I hope it's worth it...

[mortimer]

You're not a loser, you have a ED that changes your mind like that. *hug*

But I agree with the others, you're purging which screws up your body enough, then you're putting chemicals into it. I've not studied into diet pills at lengths, but for the most part they're unsafe, become ineffective, and have very dangerous side effects.

You're heading down a dangerous path, you need to turn off it NOW. Seek help, make the call.