[dcs_no1_fan]

Hi everyone

I havent posted on here for a bit but feel I need someone to talk to that know's what i'm going through.

Just before xmas I had a friend of 14 years stop talking to me what I asked her why she would not tell me (still will not) what I had done wrong with doing this she has made my anorexia come back I lost 1st in two weeks due to this prob I have managed to keep at a healthy weight just but I just can not stand the thought of putting food in my mouth I have gone back to my old way's of day's on end with out food my husband & kids know about me having it back & try very hard to get me to eat everyday but when I do it is a very small amount I hate myself so much for getiing like this again as I was just off of betting it for 3 years when I had anorexia the first time my youngest boy started to do the same as me with not wanting to eat & saying he was fat & he is far from it then & now & I am so scared that he will do the same again this time I have been to the doctor's & am getting sent to a T but when that will be I don't know this ex friend of mine said some really nasty hurtfull stuff to me & I will hate her for ever for what she said but I really need help with keeping on top of my ED sorry to go on.

[amante]

I am sorry you are having this difficult time with your friends, I have lost some good friends along the way with my ED and MD. It hurts, I pray that you find some peace with everything. Sending hugs your way.

[reflections84]

Similar situation. My ED has gone full speed ahead over the past month and a half because my best friend basically ended our friendship because I wished her boyfriend a Merry Christmas. It's been unbearable for me. I just try to fill my space and control everything. I have lost faith in relationships even more than I had before. She was teh one person I thought I could count on no matter what, but she ended up being just another person ready to bolt ... and after 11 years of being best friends. I was with her through so much and she discarded me like a pair of old shoes she dog chewed up. It has made me long for control and it's showing ... in my eating or lack there of.

I'm sorry you have the unfortunate situation of having this in common with me. I hope it gets better ... for both our sakes.

[dcs_no1_fan]

Thanks both of you it's really hard but i'm getting there someday's are better than other's reflections84 I know just how you feel my best friend did the same she would not even tell me why so I cut her out of my life I have the people who care for me in my life now & no one else matters I see it that if someone that is nearly 40 years old can be that childish then I'm better off with out her pm me any time you want if you need to chat with someone that knows what your going through
xxx

[amante]

that's the spirit dcs, glad you are having a bit better day.