[Brokenwings73]

I have this belief that if I'm not a good enough person (productive, contributing, doing enough for others, putting my needs last, etc.) then I'm not deserving of food. I believe food is a reward for good people who do good deeds and I don't feel like I do enough good deeds to be rewarded. I don't know how to get this out of my head. It's a struggle. I feel guilty when there are people who have less and do more.

[Suki22]

you need to put YOUR needs first! you can't take care of others and be the best you can be if you don't take care of yourself first. eating well is one of those things to take care of yourself. you're good enough and worth taking care of! *hugs*

[elenalovesthestars]

i know this struggle, but you deserve love and nourishment just as much as everyone else...no matter what, you matter too. and deserve to love yourself ♥

[forever_unbroken]

As much as you want to help other people before yourself, you have to realize that in order to help others, you must help yourself first. Don't ever feel like you're not worthy enough or you don't deserve things, such as food, because you haven't done good things. I really hope things get better for you. But you're the only one that make this change, so take it day by day. I know you can do it. <3

[Brokenwings73]

I call it low man on the totem pole syndrome. I've put myself so low I'm subterranean and everyone else comes first even if it's at my disadvantage. If I say no to someone I feel like I'm being incredibly selfish and undeserving. I give to others what I don't have just because they also have nothing or little. I don't know why I can't let myself rise up just a little?

[Woundedheart1]

I too treat myself like dirt and everyone else as if they sit upon an alter. If someone asks ne a favor, even if ut sends me way out if my way I go ahead and do it because of the guilt I feel if I say no. I know quite what you mean by that low man on the totem pole syndrome because that is how I feel I treat myself . I too don't see myself as important or even deserving. I too believe I'm a bad person and unless I do good deeds only then shall I deserve to eat. I don't know where exactly this came from but partly family influence as well as athletic my whole life. They were all strict and extremely demanding and if not perfect I didn't feel good enough to br rewarded .