Just another failed day!

I'm sorry things went downhill. I hope they get better again!

I am struggling with feelings of self disgust and self loathing and am really battling to not eat when I feel that. It seems I am so fat and ugly already that another slice of bread really won't make a difference anyway. Whilst I haven't been going overboard as I am prone to doing, I haven't been on the straight and narrow either. I am eating much better and controlling my portions somewhat better but not enough to lose weight.

Hardly a minute goes by when I am not feeling completely uncomfortable in my own skin. So totally out of sorts with myself. Even my fingers are fat!

Do you have the option to see a nutritionist or a dietician? Someone you can talk to about portion control so you can figure out how to choose better food options to lose weight? It is hard though, weight doesn't come off quickly enough if you want to lose it!

I am on an approved portion controlled eating plan already. I know all the rules. I know what is good and what is not. I have plenty of good options and choices to make. But it is me that is not doing it. I am starting to think that I probably do need someone to talk to but it won't be a nutritionist. It will have to be someone who specializes in emotional eating. Can't believe I just admitted that.