Needing some support

Since no one but T & nutritionist knows about my ED, I cannot get the support I'm needing so badly. I'm working on not purging and but I've also gained one pound per day for the past 6 days (which is awful).

Intellectually, I know it's water and will go away. Emotionally it is so triggering that I want to restrict my intake to less than the bare minimum.

Please provide encouraging words. I really need it right now.

That's really hard bubsmiley! But it sounds like you're being really strong and doing a great job!
Maybe you could think about letting a trusted friend know about your ED? So you could get some more support?
Thanks for reaching out. I hope you're feeling better today.

It has been a bit since you posted this but I wanted to provide some support to you.... eating disorders can be so lonely and even though I am lucky to have been able to let some of my friends in on my secret, it is very hard for them to offer support because they don't really understand...

Getting through the period when your body needs time to adjust and begin to trust you again SUCKS.... I wish I didn't know that as well as I do and it is something I have been dealing with for the past 10 months and boy is it FRUSTRATING... but I will say that it gets easier the more you can stick to the plan your therapist and dietitian help you make and although therapists love to use the phrase "sit with your feelings" I have found that in the early stages of getting back on track I always do a bit better if I can acknowledge what I feel and then distract myself so I don't spend days lost in my head with the eating disorder and go back to using behaviors...

The other thing that has helped me at points when I have felt isolated in my struggle to attempt to get into recovery from the eating disorder are groups - both therapist run ones (I like them much better) or peer run ones (such as EDA, OA, or other 12 Steps) ... It can be very helpful to not only have the support of other people, but also to have the support of people who can relate to the he!! that this battle can bring..

I hope that you are doing well as this is a hard journey... (and also saying this for my own good but...) recovery is totally worth the hard points in the path that we have to go through to reach it... hang in there