[quintessence]

I have a problem with food. Like, a serious addiction to carbs, chocolate, cheese, etc. Sometimes I binge, more often than I want to admit.

The thing is, I try to eat healthy. I know how to be nutritious. How many calories, how much fat and protein and carbs I should be eating. But I don't think I've even gone one whole day without losing control and starting a binge.

It doesn't help that people think I'm anorexic (since I try not to eat in public.) My family and friends are always on my case about it. They tell me to eat MORE.! Its horrible. No one seems to notice when I eat TOO much. Which makes it even more tempting for me to binge. And if I tried to talk to someone about it (not that I would), they wouldn't believe me!

I weigh normal now, but I don't want this to continue. Binging will ruin my life. I'll become fat and depressed and withdraw from social activity. What am I supposed to do?

[Perna]

Yes, it sounds like you have an obsession with food, whether you eat too much or not enough. Not just binging will ruin your life, continuing with the split, where you don't eat in public and others see that you are underweight (that you don't eat in public is not what they are commenting on; they comment on how you look; they might think you are unusual for not eating in public but if you look approximately the right weight to them they would be commenting on your problem of not being able to eat in public, not about your health/weight/anorexia).

I would talk to someone about not being secretive with your eating, like an alcoholic is with drinking. If you feel you binge you need to talk to someone now. If others don't think you eat enough, you need to talk to someone now. What you understand is at odds with what others see/understand and how to get better balance is what you should talk to someone about.