[Woundedheart1]

My pdoc has come to the conclusion I'm pretty much not going to budge from the place I'm in and I've been in enough treatment I could write the program that I'm going to have to figure out my own me and best program that is going to be a solution that brings me out of this place that I'm in. She finally agrees no further tx is really going to benefit. My mind is set and somewhat standoffish and I'm going to have to search with in for awnsers and do intensive therapy with my lcsw to find the awnsers. it's a daily battle but I got to face this head on if I want a chance at any kind of life. The only thing that keeps me going is my pdocs faith in me I will overcome to the other side! I just wish I had that much faith in me. We shall see.

[Bill3]

How might you start to figure out your own you?

[Woundedheart1]

Thats what i am trying to figure out. Right now i do eat at least one to two snacks a day byt want so badly to lose the wt. Im doing some wkbooks to try and help my thinking along but it doesnt seem to be doing thhe job. All i do is wish my day away to lose the wt and count calories. And currently i just underwent one major surjery on my leg and havve to have another in 1 1/2 weeks to rebreak my leg this time they took the old hardware out in a 4 hr operation on thursdy. i have to hvave new hardware put in as well and will be on crutches for 5 months and not b able to exercise or anything. i feel like im sliding down a long tunnel.

[Bill3]

I'm so sorry about your upcoming surgery and the ensuing long time on crutches. It sounds like the expected lack of exercise is really worrying you. Check with your doctor, maybe you could do some seated exercises, such as "Chair Dancing"? http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1?url=search-alias%3Dmovies-tv&field-keywords=chair+dancing&x=0&y=0

The search within, and the intensive therapy you are considering with your lcsw, both sound really important. Good luck and keep at them!

[eskielover]

Your pdoc is right....& the fact that your recovery has always been dependent on what's inside of you, no one can do it for you or force you to want to do it. I know that all my recoveries from everything including surgeries that required a lot of physical therapy time afterward required my determination for me to totally recover. It has to come from within......the desire has to be there.

Ugh, the stress of going through surgeries always made it hard for me to eat.....which just fed into the anorexia. I had knee reconstruction before it was done arthriscopically & was on crutches unable to put any weight on my leg for 3 months. When I finally got into physical therapy, I went at the exercise like there was no tomorrow. Partially because my leg had no muscle & I was determined to be skiing in 6 months & partially because it really was helping loose weight. Physical Therapy will help you with the exercises that you will be able to do.

Life always seems to be throwing something complicated at us. Hope all goes well.