I wish...

I wish I had the type of depression where I wouldn't want to eat. I had it for a day, where I was so distraught that I couldn't eat, but the rest of my time I'm depressed and all I want to do is eat to make myself feel better. Then the cycle begins, I eat too much, I gain weight and then I'm even more depressed...

I guess if I had one wish it would really not to be depressed at all, now that I think about it.

Hi Suki22, I feel like this too - eating does help soothe me at the time, but then afterwards when I stand on the scales I feel bad about myself. The days that I do manage to eat little I feel more positive.

I know this isn't healthy and I see a T - we are working on ways of dealing with the feelings in more appropriate ways, and I do think that is the way forward for me in being able to find other ways of dealing with my feelings other than food.

Do you see a T for your depression?

I haven't seen my therapist for a few months as she was on maternity leave. She's back now and I have an appointment on Wednesday. Thank god I found PC to get me through while she was out--I only wish I would have found it a a few months earlier. My therapist suggested a while ago I go to OA, but I don't know if I'm into the twelve step program--the higher power stuff is a bit of a turn-off for me. Maybe I'll give it a whirl, who knows. Thanks for the reply!

12 step programs are great not just for people with issues and addictions but as a way of looking at your life and seeing what is going on and how can you address situations in a way that will make you feel better and those around you. Its more of a program of "fixing you". throgh my experience with 12 steps i learned that i had to change my way of thinking and interacting with people because they certianly wernt going to change and once i did that my relationships began to change for the better. I also learned to accept responsibility for me, if i did something wrong i had to learn from it and grow. And the highr power thing doesnt have to be god, it can be a lamp post or a door knob or anything you want it to be, i know a lot of athiests in 12 step programs that just name their highr power fred and substitute that whereever the word god is mentined. its your final decision but they have helped me immensly. good luck.