[chelemommy]

I am having such a hard time right now. I've admitted my ed and have an appointment next Monday to see an eating disorder therapist. Since I've openly admitted my problem, I cannot handle it. I about broke down at work today after I purged and broke down a little while ago. I just feel so overwhelmed. Is it because I admitted what i am doing? How does anyone else handle these feelings???
Thanks.

[Namaste]

Hi sweetheart...I know you are hurting right now. It is such a big step for admitting you have an ED, you should truly be proud of yourself. It's cliche but...admitting really is the hardest step. I myself have only been out for about 4 months, after hiding for 5 years so...I can completely relate. Once you start seeing a therapist, and you get used to the feeling of opening, even just a little, I promise the anxiety will come down. Have you thought about anti-depressants? I am on 60 mg of Prozac every day, and I can tell you that it works wonders. It takes a while to feel the effects, but it helps regulate the extreme ups and low lows! and i know we've all been there! I am really glad you decided to get help Talk to me whenever you want ok??

[sniffles]

Like Namaste has said, be proud of yourself for admitting you have a problem. I can now admit that I do, but I didn't used to. It was like if I admitted that I was sick, that I truly was sick. It was such a final thing. Please realize that you've made the first step in recovery. Admitting you have a problem is one of the hardest things to do. I have been dealing with anorexia/bulimia for the past 11 years. Please don't let yours carry on as long as I have mine. Get the help you need now, even if it is hard for you. I am always here if you want to talk. I'm just a pm or im away. Be good to yourself poppet.