[Sabrina]

Why are they so comforting.

I AM NOT HUNGRY.

I am not even depressed ( I suppose )

But the bag of cheese and onion potato chips? They seem like a lover.

They are comforting me ...

And then I stand on the scale ... and without even trying... begin to vomit ... out of pure disgust at me and my body, and my weight.

And then I sit down again, to write ............ and my pudgy hand reaches into the bag of chips and all of the above starts all over again.

What an absolute failure and waste of space I am.

You are no failure!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not easy to resist what we should not be eating so often!

I suggest you should only by chips once a week and then eat with joy. You will find that they taste even better after some longing! Then when you eat... maybe you could do it when the others are with you too, so you have to share.

Not easy, I know! But it can be done! Please don't beat yourself up! Tomorrow is a new day... new posibilities!

You're looking good! I've seen photos and you look wonderful! But I know... hard for you to see it youself.

You are loved and certainly not a waste of space!!!!!

[Sabrina]

Those photos you saw ............... oh I am so ashamed I even showed them to you.

I've gone blank.

Well - large as life me will be back ...............

[Sabrina]

I am very embarrassed that I posted this thread.

It is too late for me to delete it - but I wish I could!

[Estee1]

I could say, 'Don't be embarrassed." But that never works for me for people tell me to do that. I can't just turn off the embarrassment.
All I can say is that we aren't here to judge you. I think that you are brave being able to talk about it. I am ashamed of what I eat and i find it very hard and almost impossible to tell the people who are there to help me. I feel so terrible.
Sending hugs to you ((((((((((sabrina)))))))