[Candycane12]

So, I'm not really sure what to do. About 3 years ago I lost a lot of weight and was diagnosed with anarexia. At the time I did not feel I had the disease, although I was underweight and didn't have a period. After the diagnosis I gained enough weight to put me back into the healthy zone without treatment or anything. Since then I have lost weight and nearly weigh what I weighed when the docs diagnosed me, but once again I'm not sure if I really am anarexia. Yes I'm underweight, lack a period and obsess about food, exercise, and my appearance. Yet, at the same time I eat normally (I count calories and only eat healthy food, but the jist is I eat substantial calories) granted I exercise and i dont look that skinny. I'm wondering if because I eat the basic calorie intake(give or take) I could still be anarexic? I'm underweight and have mental symptoms, but I feel like I eat well.
I'm afraid to say anything because last time the docs diagnosed my parents and I made a big deal about how they were wrong. Also, I'm about to go away to college and I don't want my parents to think I can't handle being on my own.

[justgivealittle]

Hey Candycane! Welcome to PC! I'm not sure.... I would talk to your doctor in private without your parents. I have been in treatment 3 times and I was never underweight but had unhealthy eating patterns.... skipping meals, eating too little... lost my period for 6 months but I don't know. Hope that helps!

[Candycane12]

Thanks! Yeah, it's like I know the amount of time I put into thinking about calories and food is not normal. Sometimes I want to be able to go through a day without feeling guilty after eating or thinking about how much I will be able to eat at my next meal. At the same time, I don't want to see the number in the scale go up and I'm afraid if I stop counting calories, I'll blow up. Even though I eat, I have a fast metabolism and still lose weight. I guess I'm afraid of committing to a gaining meal plan because I don't want to be fat.

[eskielover]

It might be a good idea if you can either find a nutritionist on your own, or have your Dr refer you to one. That way you can figure out the right foods to eat & the right amount you need to eat given your specific body makeup & metabolism so that you can stay at the healthy weight without any massive weight gain or continued loss.

I understand the desire not to blow up or continue to loose. It's nice when you can find that perfect weight where you feel good & you look good. I find it actually takes more control to stay at that point than it does to restrict.