[buttrfli42481]

besides therapy and a dietician who won't see me if my weight gets into the "danger" zone. I am so close to that zone right now and am trying to stay away from it, but it is so hard to get out of the cycle. I am on Missouri Medicaid and the only place that took it was Midwest Center for Eating Disorders and they closed Aug. 31, 2012. They were great there. I don't have the money to pay out of pocket and don't work enough hours to make full time to receive benefits. I feel so stuck. I have called about a dozen different places trying to find somewhere that will accept my insurance, but get the same reply of "I'm sorry we don't take that insurance." I don't know what to do. MCED needs to find a new home and fast.

[AngelWolf3]

I am so sorry! So, MCED closed, but is relocating? That is good, I hope that is what is happening (unless I read wrong...)

I am glad you are trying to stay out of the danger zone, as hard as that is.

I am glad you have therapy, though...I hope it is helpful, even in a tiny bit?

[precious things]

I am wondering what you think a treatment center will provide you that you can't do for yourself on the outside? Those places are really great for weight restoration but if you feel committed to going inpatient somewhere, couldn't you apply that same drive or mindset to gaining on the outside, on your own?

[buttrfli42481]

Wolfin: MCED is trying to relocate, but I haven't heard of where yet. Therapy is helpful but there is only so much you can do.

Precious: a treatment center provides me with extra support to help me realize that I can do it on the outside, sometimes you just need a "tune-up". On the inside, there is a sense of security that isn't there on the outside.

According to my dr, I weigh X lbs (which was over my safe weight). I freaked out, I feel so freakin fat now. I haven't ate all day, and if I didn't have my daughter with me, I wouldn't eat dinner either.

[Gr3tta]

if you are really desperate, sometimes you can be admitted to different kinds of hospitals medically, for amenorrhea, as opposed to for the ed. it might give you a temporary fix until you find a better alternative.

[eskielover]

The medical hospital I was in 8 years ago for my anorexia because I needed IV nutrition, my PCP provided me with a psychologist that saw me every day & also a pdoc. Neither my own psychologist not pdoc had priviledges in that hospital.

The last time I had anorexia problems back in 1995-1997 when it was bad, the PCP I had then also put me into the medical side of the hospital & then they had me go to the mental health group for support with the anorexia while on the IV nutrition.

But honestly, it's not ok to get to that bad place....much better to take care of it while physically stable.

[JayneDough!]

Originally Posted by buttrfli42481

. . . I don't have the money to pay out of pocket and don't work enough hours to make full time to receive benefits. I feel so stuck. . .

I know exactally how you feel. I am exeriancing amenorreha, but there is nothing I can do because, like you, I don't have insurance. I hope that everything works out for you in the end. In the mean time we are all here to support you.

[avoice]

I don't think impatient therapy always works. Been in 6 you have to stay long tern to get the help you really need. You don't have the support of family. all you have is a lot of drama young adults that want see who can be the better anorexia. It's a joke. I had to totally get away permanently get rid of ed help all the way to get better. All the weighing made me just want to lose more weight every week it was a trigger for me. 30 days impatient they get your insurance when that runs out your discharge. Rather your better or not end of story

[onlytime]

I'm sorry you're having a really hard time
Can you see your therapist more often?
I know sometimes inpatient is really helpful to get started - I'm sorry your insurance doesn't cover any places though! Does it cover any inpatient psych hospitals? Some of them are pretty good with eating disorders (though not all), but the extra support could be useful.

Good luck and don't give up!

[Victoria'smom]

If there's a drug & alcohol center in your area usually they take medicaid. They may be able to help until you find an ED center.

[buttrfli42481]

onlytime: I see my ED T once a week and another T once a week, plus I see my dietician once a week. The last psych hospital I was in, I didn't leave my room for 3 days and they didn't care. I hadn't been eating before I went in and then didn't eat for those 3 days. Around here psych hospitals are for getting your meds stable and sending you out the door. Sad thing but true.

Miguel's Mom: I don't know how a drug and alcohol center can help me, I don't have a problem with either.

I was told that I need to ask my medicaid provider for an out-of-network agreement in which I could go to a facility out of state that takes medicaid and have it covered somewhat.
Good news is that I have been eating slightly more than what I had been, but not sure how long that is going to last. I just can't seem to accept that it is ok to weigh X amount.

[Victoria'smom]

There's a lot of similarities between ED's and addictions. So an addiction therapists may be able to help until you find an ED therapist.

[Anika.]

This might sound crazy... But it's not. Even if you look up treatment for anorexia you will see yoga listed as a treatment often. It has proven to be beneficial for all ED's not just anorexia.

I started practicing yoga without that knowledge or intentions of using it for ed treatment. I had out patient treatment which didn't really help me much, I had a dietician at the hospital.. Didn't help much either. When I started yoga it helped so much, I started to notice the differences in my mind towards my body and food quite quickly and that is when I started looking for information on yoga for ed treatment. I have been anorexic since I was a very young child all the way into my 30's. The ways it helped me was by connecting my body and mind, giving me a new appreciation of my body, form and strength. Helping me see my body as something beautiful in it's own right as something to be nourished.. self esteem, being mindful of my body, loosing the strive for perfection and control... It helped in so many ways I can't even list. I have not engaged in anorexic behaviors since, and my mind even tho it may want to go there, I can easily reign it back in now. I have never been able to do that before. I started restricting around 4 years old, saw my first therapist for anorexia at 5, I am 34 now.. so for me it has helped in a huge way.

I do go to a studio, and I do yoga daily, however it is something that doesn't necessarily require money, you can practice it on your own. Tho I find the studio more beneficial because of the support and mindfulness of the other people present. Many studios will let you practice by seva or dana... Which is service or donation.

http://jscms.jrn.columbia.edu/cns/20...gatherapy.html

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20307823

http://eatingdisorder.org/blog/2008/...r-whittington/

There are a lot of interesting articles on the subject, those are just a few if anyone is struggling with ED's and are interested in yoga as part of treatment.

[buttrfli42481]

Miguel'sMom: I have an ED t so I don't need another t. I also have a dietician. Both of which collaberate together for my treatment. However, if I fall below X lbs neither of them can or will see me. That is where the trouble is. If I can't see either of them, I have no support to help me get back on track. I am trying to find that support now, before I have none at all.

Anika: I do try and do yoga by myself because I can't afford the classes or the gas to get me there every week. When I was in the hospital, we did yoga twice a week and NIA once a week. Yoga really does help calm the mind and is easy enough on your body to do. I will definately read the articles you posted.

I see my dietician tomorrow (12-12-12) first thing in the morning and then see my ED t at 1. My dietician was talking about allowing me to see my weight and tomorrow will be the first day that will happen. I am so nervous about it. Part of me wants to know and the other part wants no part in knowing. It is a battle that only one part is going to win.

[ShaggyChic_1201]

Originally Posted by buttrfli42481

My dietician was talking about allowing me to see my weight and tomorrow will be the first day that will happen.

I can think of no good reason for you to know what you weigh when it triggers you so much. if you weigh above X, you'll panic and lose. If u weigh below Y, you'll be tempted to lose more. Just let them take care of the numbers.

As for not seeing you when you are below a certain weight, I've never understood that It seems like that's when u need support the most!

My goes out to you
Bub

[eskielover]

I understand their concept of not seeing you below a certain weight....it's like a threat......to keep you above that weight or loose them....it's your choice.

Unfortunately, those kinds of threats don't always work....but they feel that if that limit is in place then you will do everything in your possibility to not drop below that weight & loose the only support you have.

[buttrfli42481]

My dietician did not tell me my weight this week. She did comment that I wasn't in the "danger zone" yet, which tells me that I have lost more weight. I see her again this Wednesday.