[Victoria'smom]

when I first started therapy I was completely fine with talking about my eating disorder. 2 years into it I refuse to talk about it at all with my therapist. Whether she brings it up or I inadvertently bring it up it quickly becomes me being silent or avoiding it all together. I literally ignore when it is mentioned. I don't understand because I trust her so much yet as time goes on I refuse to deal with it. it really hasn't gotten worse but I don't understand what the hell is going on. why would I be completely willing to talk about it in beginning but not now? Any ideas would be really helpful. thank you

[MoxieDoxie]

2 years in therapy and you still have no recovery for you ED? oK now I am feeling doomed.

After two years I would not bother talking to the same therapist about my ED. That part would have lost faith in their ability to do anything.

[eskielover]

Maybe 2 years later & you have made up your mind where you are with it & there probably isn't anything you haven't said or haven't heard before....so what would be the point of talking about it?

My ED only arises when there are other things triggering it & those are the things I need to deal with....not the ED in specific......this is the case for most ED's.....maybe for your situation also?

[Victoria'smom]

Moxie- I made it very clear at the beginning of therapy that I didn't want help with ED. I felt it was a non issue as I was stable ED wise and felt I was in recovery. T quickly told me I wasn't. My exact reaction to that was ED was drinking age so I've made my piece with her.

I use to be completely okay with talking about ED. If I was talking about that I didn't have to talk about myself. 2 sessions ago my T purposely triggered my ED. She offered me candy and then left it there. I was doing REALLY good at hiding how bothered I was but 5 min before I left I picked it up said sorry and put it out of my sight.

I brought this incident up last session and learned that it was purposeful as was one other time. I suspected that but there was only a flash of complete terror and then I seemed to recover. Until I picked it up and looked like I'd make a hole in the wall if I throw it. So I was okay talking about that.

Later that session she brought ED up, it kicked the wind out of me and I refused to talk about it. Since I've been upset because I know she'll bring it up next session and for some reason that idea frighteneds me. I just don't get it.

My ED is on a trigger basis too and if I deal with that it calms down but this seems solely ed. I just don't under stand.