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I was thinking about something else. I'm on that new birth control pill that you take for 3 months and then have a period. This fact will probably throw that portion of criteria for anorexia right out the window, and MAY actually allow someone to give me a definite diagnosis of anorexia now if I lose weight, or unless the person goes by me not wanting my weight to go over the T's minimum. My T's minimum is my (preferred) maximum. Far as I know, all it would take is my refusal to meet the minimum weight for my age/height/build. The idea of anorexia was mentioned by my T in the past after I started going back to him again. He wondered if anyone else had said anything about me being anorexic. He was the first person to actually say the word to me. I hadn't really been to talk to anybody about it. Still, I'm sure at times like this it's a stress reaction. During the summer, on the other hand, the wonderful hot weather and the wearing of shorts and tank tops/etc. will be enough to keep me from eating. I love to soak up that glorious, hot, HOT sun!

[Rapunzel]

You sound quite a bit like me in some ways. Not eating is a way to feel like you have control. If you feel like other things in your life are outside your control, then it makes sense that you want to control something - why not your weight.

Also, do you feel like you want to have this diagnosis, and might "feed" your not eating symptoms in order to be more anorexic? I'm making that guess because I can picture myself thinking the way that you are, and because I'm disappointed when I do an eating disorders screening quiz and it comes back saying that I don't have an eating disorder. Just a hunch that could be totally off. Anyway, I'm glad that you allowed yourself something to eat tonight.

Take care of yourself!
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