I can't believe what is happening.

Hi all, well I agreed to go into treatment. I am relieved because I am physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I am petrified of letting go. Well, I thought my family would be pleased that I agreed to get help, well that is not what I got. My dad questioned if I really needed help, and how are they going to really help me? My husband said he felt if I really wanted to, I could get better on my own. Like I should just call the gym and cancel my membership today. I finally surrender and admit I can't get better on my own, and I get questioned and doubt that I need help. If I could do it on my own I would have by now. Living with an ED is all consuming and it's like putting yourself through hell and not being able to stop. Any support, or help to make me understand their reactions would be greatly appreciated.

They have not walked in your shoes. They can't comprehend the disease even after watching you suffer. It's common for people that haven't been there to be in denial. I'm sorry you got no support from your dad or husband. It might help to include them in some of your therapy sessions. Wishing you the best. Glad you made the best decision for you.

Thanks to everyone who replied to my thread. It is Monday and I am supposed to hear back from the hospital regarding if they will take me and when to head up there. I got more negative feedback from my dad, although I do realize he means well. My husband, who means well too, also kept confusing me. Part of me is ready to give up and not go to the hospital and part of me knows I will keep going with my behaviors. My hubby works out of town M-F so I am home alone to act out. I can't just turn that off. Because I didn't go to the gym, because he asked me not to while he was here over the weekend, he feels I am able to just stop. I told him I'll be right back at it on Monday. He still does not get it. I will get him in for a family meeting. The question is will it be with my ED therapist here where I live, or at Sheppard Pratt in Baltimore?