That's about it. I don't mean to not eat, but at the same time I can't force myself too. I know its anxiety related, but it's more than that. I really have no appetite. And in a way, I've lost so much weight, that I want to keep losing it. But at the same time, taking diabetic medication, makes my stomach hurt when its empty. I feel right now, like this is a slow way of suicide.

[buttrfli42481]

Have you considered talking to a therapist about this? Or even your GP? Are you a diabetic or using the med for something else? If you are diabetic, then how are you managing the diabetes? Anorexia is a slow way of suicide if you let it take complete control. Are you able to drink anything? Maybe try smoothies or products like Ensure/Boost to get your nutrients. Why do you think it is anxiety related? For me, the only anxiety I had was when I was lying to my parents about whether I ate or not. When you starve yourself for a certain amount of time, you lose your hunger signals, thus resulting in having little to no appetite. It takes about a year for these signals to return once you have restored your weight to a healthy weight. And even then those signals get confused, at least they did with me.

I hope you are able to get the help you need.

[unaluna]

Many diabetic meds cause damage if not taken properly ie with food. Please be careful.

Originally Posted by buttrfli42481

Have you considered talking to a therapist about this? Or even your GP? Are you a diabetic or using the med for something else? If you are diabetic, then how are you managing the diabetes? Anorexia is a slow way of suicide if you let it take complete control. Are you able to drink anything? Maybe try smoothies or products like Ensure/Boost to get your nutrients. Why do you think it is anxiety related? For me, the only anxiety I had was when I was lying to my parents about whether I ate or not. When you starve yourself for a certain amount of time, you lose your hunger signals, thus resulting in having little to no appetite. It takes about a year for these signals to return once you have restored your weight to a healthy weight. And even then those signals get confused, at least they did with me.

I hope you are able to get the help you need.

Thank you for your reply. I am type 2 diabetic, but take almost the highest dosage to manage. I was very overweight for a good 10 or more years. But its this last 3 months or so that are scaring me. The gp tried taking away my glyburide, because I admitted to him my sugars sometimes go to 3, which I don't know how sugars are measured in other countries, but here 5.5 is normal, and I get to almost too low and would pass out. It's happened once to me before. I'm still over weight, but it's all on the belly, more there than anywhere, and loose skin. I have extreme anxiety all the time.
I do have a psych nurse that I've finally got help from, and she told me I must eat something. Especially in the a.m. with my meds. I just can't make myself eat though. I take the meds, and then my stomach aches. I have no appetite. I do want to eat, but at the same time, I fear it's my thoughts that are interrupting my desire to force myself. I know I like that I've lost weight, but my stomach, and I'm not exaggerating, is in despicable condition. If I could get rid of that, I'd feel better.
I could just be physically sick, but my gp wont test for anything else, and all he says is "go for a walk, its anxiety".. so that's what I did this a.m. I went for a walk, and still no will to eat, I did eat a small amount of mini wheats this afternoon. I can't afford shakes or meal replacements, although that would be a good idea. I know it's in my head. I can't get rid of it. And the amount of calories I take in, I shouldn't be able to have energy for anything, and I should weigh much less by now.
Thanks to the other person that replied as well. hugs to you both

[Rose76]

Hi Reality,

I think you made a good point by noting that hunger can cause anxiety. So to get into a more regular eating routine might ease some of your stress.

I think the hardest is to eat early in the day. However, I was told to improve my eating habits after getting diverticulitis in October. I started to have some coffee and high fiber cereal first thing in the morning. I was kind of forcing it down, as I had no desire for it. I would just make myself a small bowl. To my amazement, after about 4 days of doing this, I started to wake up with my stomach ready and wanting that little bowl of bran flakes and raisins. After a week, I started to want an egg and toast after I had the cereal. So it's a lot to do with what your body expects that it's going to get.

My s/o is Type II diabetic, with a tendency to not get enough protein. Supplemental shakes are expensive. So I get him those packets of Carnation Instant Breakfast. He mixes one in a plastic jug with milk by shaking it. I know it's not technically what a diabetic is supposed to eat, as it has real sugar in it. But with blood sugars as low as yours, it might be okay for you. That's about the best buy in protein drinks. Boost came out with a drink for diabetics, but Boost is darn expensive. ($27 for a case at Sam's Club for the non-diabetic high protein.)

You don't want to take a slow route toward undermining your health. I agree it can be a way of the mind saying, "I don't really care if I survive."

Taking a shower or going for a walk can help to wake up your system to have a little appetite. Maybe turn on the TV in the morning and watch some news to interrupt your self-talk.

(((HUGS)))

Rose,
The thing that makes the most sense is the part where you said my body is expecting what it is use to in the morning. That is exactly the time I don't eat, and feel I can't. I will try to just make myself eat, even if its just a couple bites of toast this morning.

I wonder if drinking coffee first thing is also destroying any appetite. After all, it makes me wake up but maybe more nervous.

That's a great idea about the instant breakfast. I've looked at it, and if I only use half a pack in a cup of milk, the sugar won't be awfully high. I've been living off of plain yogurt for a while, but I need some protein and meat just doesn't agree with me. I had a burger last night (I took a seroquel and hadn't eaten all day), but it just makes me very grumpy after and I didn't sleep well.

Sometimes I have felt like my gut is ready to explode, and I've told the gp but he doesn't say anything. He said they will only bother with the gallbladder if it becomes really bad. I think that's nuts, but oh well.

Funny about putting on the tv to interrupt my thoughts. I was thinking, as a kid, I also couldn't eat in the morning. Too much going on in my head. I'd find myself just staring at the back of the cereal box to distract myself in any way I could, because I'd probably get a lot more anxious if I didn't eat (mom would flip out at me)..

Food was pushed on me as a kid, and for some reason a lot of things are coming up lately again about the past, which I think feeds my desire to be in control of myself. This is a way of taking control maybe, but I know it's not good for me. I do want to be healthy, but sometimes it's easy to give up and say to heck with health.

Anxiety is horrible again. I may be stuck with using more seroquel, but I don't want to. It's the only thing now that stimulates the appetite. Thanks so much for your reply!