[touchingthestars]

I wish i could just be stronger than hunger. Learn to live without food. Empty and free and capable of anything. Get rid of the ties to food and hunger and physicality and my body and just be pure

I think I sound manic.

[CANDC]

Hi touchingthestars. Sorry to hear you are struggling with hunger.

A friend did battle with hunger and ending up losing too much weight before she finally stabilized herself with small high protein snacks or meals every 3 hours. Without binging her stomach shrank and eventually tolerates less food.

Exercise and yoga helps free the energy so one can feel lighter and more connected to my body.

There are also other forums that you may find of interest.

[touchingthestars]

Hi,

Thank you for replying... I'm just not sure what you meant by other forums....

[Crazy Hitch]

Stronger than hunger? I'll chall that thought just a little bit for you if you don't mind if I do. It's a basic human need. We wouldn't survive without it. It's as natural as the air we breathe and our heart that pumps.

Your body would not be pure. Wouldn't it be deprived? No I don't just mean deprived physically but what about emotional deprivation too?

I'm not saying go eat all the MacDonald burgers. Im just saying there is a balance.

And we don't need to deprive ourselves.

What do you think?

[touchingthestars]

Thank you

That's exactly what I wanted to hear

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by touchingthestars

Hi,

Thank you for replying... I'm just not sure what you meant by other forums....

Here are some different forums that could be of interest.
Coping with Emotions - Forums at Psych Central

Eating Disorders - Forums at Psych Central

Self Injury - Forums at Psych Central

Steps to Better Self-Esteem - Forums at Psych Central

Depression - Forums at Psych Central

Hope that clarifies what I meant by other forums.

[touchingthestars]

Ya gotcha

Thanks

[Steiner of Thule]

I feel real good about myself when I don't eat. Like you said "pure." Whenever I do eat I feel guilty and then wish I hadn't.

[theinvisigoth]

I don't know about "pure", but I feel like I focus better and am just generally a better person when I haven't eaten. I get stuck in this mental cycle where food makes me bad and I don't deserve any because I'm bad...

[touchingthestars]

Ya I can relate to that too...

Good luck

[eskielover]

I wish i could just be stronger than hunger. Learn to live without food. Empty and free and capable of anything. Get rid of the ties to food and hunger and physicality and my body and just be pure

Without food the body dies.....guess that's as pure as you can get.....it's definitely NOT even LOGICAL as the body needs food just as the car needs gas to be able to function....no food....no function....no life.

Is that really what you want?

Know that I did at one time when my first battle with anorexia hit me....I didn't want to live & I hoped that I would die from it.....but I didn't & now I'm thankful because I escaped the life that was driving me to that point.

If you do have manic issues, & this is coming from that, I would suggest you take with your pdoc regarding that.....otherwise, a wonderful T who can work with you on your irrational thinking would be a good place to work through these thoughts.

Know that my DBT group has definitely helped a lot also......was dealing with PTSD at the time when I started, anxiety, & depression but had been in useless therapy for 13 years before I finally got out of the bad marriage.....skills & logical mindfulness thinking is a good way to fight the irrational thinking that comes with ED's

[fatjustin]

I feel perfect,so happy when no food goes in me i dont know why i feel like god

[dollymilk]

seeing the headline of your topic just... hit me hard... that is exactly how i feel... i thought i was the only one... when i starve i feel better, pure, innocent and lovely... sigh

[touchingthestars]

Hi,

I'm glad you don't feel alone now. Feeling lonely and not understood is one of the hardest feelings for me to tolerate so I'm glad I helped lessen that a bit. Really- what I wrote is based in an ed reality- not the real world. Personally- I LOVE feeling empty. It puts me in a state where everything is ok and works out... But its really unhealthy. It hurts my body. Its not good. To feel good later I need to feel bad now. That's how it works. Its hard. Really really hard. But if you're here thlen you're already on your way. Wishing you the best of luck!

[angelicgoldfish05]

Originally Posted by touchingthestars

I wish i could just be stronger than hunger. Learn to live without food. Empty and free and capable of anything. Get rid of the ties to food and hunger and physicality and my body and just be pure

I think I sound manic.

To answer your question, yes. When I feel hunger I also feel empowered, and as you say, capable of anything and of course, pure. It is one of the greatest highs I have ever known. And it is free of cost yet accessible to anyone and everyone. Honestly, if people knew how great it truly feels I think more people would be doing it instead of criticizing those who are.