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#1
Jan 29, 2015, 07:10 PM
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As odd as this sounds I want to starve myself to punish myself, but I'm too weak-willed to do it. I'm a bad, stupid person and deserve to be hurt.
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#2
Jan 29, 2015, 07:12 PM
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I don't have an eating disorder but wanted to answer, I used to feel the same way. I never ended up doing it, but I understand the motivation behind it.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#3
Feb 07, 2015, 10:50 AM
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I sometimes see starving as self punishment. I know that a large part of my eating disorder is because I don't feel good enough.
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Feb 07, 2015, 02:06 PM
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You are not a bad person, or a stupid person. We all have done "stupid" or "bad" things. Comes with being human. But these are behaviors and not who we are.
I too have wondered if an eating disorder is just another form of self-harm. It appears to be because of how truly harmful the behaviors can be. Why do you feel you need to be punished or hurt? Why specifically not eating? What has happened in your life to have taught you these things?
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"When it's good, it's so good, when it's gone, it's gone." -Ben Harper DX: Bipolar Disorder, MDD-recurrent. Issues w/addiction, alcohol abuse, anxiety, PTSD, & self esteem. Bulimia & self-harm in remission |
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#5
Feb 08, 2015, 11:50 PM
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That's not stupid. I feel like that all the time
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Feb 13, 2015, 05:10 PM
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I do the same thing.
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"People say nothing is impossible, but I do nothing every day." - Winnie the Pooh 
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Feb 13, 2015, 07:53 PM
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       Oh yes, I def def go along with that, starving is self harm. It's not common that we, as the sufferer, realise we are hurting ourselves in this way. It all gets very caught up with the emotional issues. It's a very long painful death, but once it's got a real hold, death could easily be where it's heading. I'm not saying any of this to scare anybody, because I DO understand. It always remains though, that in the end the absolute control we worked towards acquiring, is the very thing that prevents us recovering. We all need support from each other to carry on our fight. It doesn't matter what ED we have, whether it be anorexia, bulimia or EDNOS, they cause untold pain, damage and isolation. HUGS. XXXXXX 
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Feb 18, 2015, 11:03 PM
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i feel the same way, including not being able to follow through
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#9
Dec 11, 2017, 05:42 AM
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Starving ones self due to punishment overall feels better then other forms of self punishment, at least in my opinion. It’s easy to pull off, easy to stop, and provides an indescribable feeling of emptiness. Whenever I feel I’ve let someone down, this is what I typically end up doing. While unhealthy (even though all forms of self harm are) it doesn’t leave scars or require intense courage to do as activities like cutting yourself do. That’s why I believe most people to it. This is just speaking from my experience, which might differ from others viewpoints.
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#10
Dec 19, 2017, 11:42 AM
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In the process of doing that now. I relish the hunger. It is empowering me.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors. |
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Dec 23, 2017, 02:30 PM
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Dec 23, 2017, 02:32 PM
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Dec 24, 2017, 02:54 PM
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Possible trigger:
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