Not eating as a form of self-punishment

As odd as this sounds I want to starve myself to punish myself, but I'm too weak-willed to do it. I'm a bad, stupid person and deserve to be hurt.

I don't have an eating disorder but wanted to answer, I used to feel the same way. I never ended up doing it, but I understand the motivation behind it.

I sometimes see starving as self punishment. I know that a large part of my eating disorder is because I don't feel good enough.

You are not a bad person, or a stupid person. We all have done "stupid" or "bad" things. Comes with being human. But these are behaviors and not who we are.

I too have wondered if an eating disorder is just another form of self-harm. It appears to be because of how truly harmful the behaviors can be.

Why do you feel you need to be punished or hurt? Why specifically not eating? What has happened in your life to have taught you these things?

That's not stupid. I feel like that all the time

I do the same thing.

Oh yes, I def def go along with that, starving is self harm. It's not common that we, as the sufferer, realise we are hurting ourselves in this way. It all gets very caught up with the emotional issues. It's a very long painful death, but once it's got a real hold, death could easily be where it's heading. I'm not saying any of this to scare anybody, because I DO understand. It always remains though, that in the end the absolute control we worked towards acquiring, is the very thing that prevents us recovering. We all need support from each other to carry on our fight. It doesn't matter what ED we have, whether it be anorexia, bulimia or EDNOS, they cause untold pain, damage and isolation. HUGS. XXXXXX

i feel the same way, including not being able to follow through

Starving ones self due to punishment overall feels better then other forms of self punishment, at least in my opinion. It’s easy to pull off, easy to stop, and provides an indescribable feeling of emptiness. Whenever I feel I’ve let someone down, this is what I typically end up doing. While unhealthy (even though all forms of self harm are) it doesn’t leave scars or require intense courage to do as activities like cutting yourself do. That’s why I believe most people to it. This is just speaking from my experience, which might differ from others viewpoints.

In the process of doing that now. I relish the hunger. It is empowering me.

I fit the criteria of an eating disorder. I quit eating. I do this myself. If one saw how I eat if I eat at all or saw a picture of me one would think I had an eating disorder. I was force to punished myself because of my family.

I feel like this all the time