[Eris]

Trigger warning ( I hope I labled that right.) I don't know if it's a trigger exactly, but I figure I better be safe than sorry.)

A long time ago I dealt w/ anorexia, and in my teens my weight shot up to meds. And my weight has fluctuated after I got it a bit back down, but it was never really down enough. I take appetite suppressants, and I wonder if that's part of it, the whole metabolism slowing down due to the body being tricked into starvation, and storing fat.. I feel I don't really eat too much, but I also have a VERY sedentary life style too. I'm just trying to lose weight and not feel gross, and I can't bring myself to exercise yet, other wise I feel I would be doing other things I enjoy as well too.

I guess what I am asking is there any hope for a metabolism to be fixed after years of this? I've been on these meds with the same cruddy appetite since I was a kid. Could I ever learn to like, force myself to eat, and get my body out of starvation mode, and see my body stop storing fat quite as much?

I was also hoping to find tips on not eating out of sadness/emptiness. I mean because of my appetite surpression, All I know is that when I eat, food causes a 'good' sensation... And well I am a lot better on meds than off, but I tend to just try to fix things that bother me with food. And Idk how to break that. And there seems to be a lot that bothers me, and I'm not in any good place to do much about it quite yet. Anyways, It helped typing this out. And it's not like mods let my stuff fly anyways on this site. :/ In the case it actually does make it to a forum post, I could both use and appreciate the help. It's one of the things I think I don't like about myself and just kind of piles on, you know?

[CANDC]

Pterrabad. I am sorry you are suffering from ED but glad you are coping with it through meds to treat the appetite. Have you tried a therapist that specializes in ED?

As I understand it the body is a machine like thing that feeds on foods and burns them up with exercise. Burning more calories produces a higher metabolism and likely burns more fat plus gives you the high that exercising provides with added energy.

If you are not into real active exercise, yoga may be a way to start.
www.youtube.com search for adrienne complete beginners yoga

[Eris]

I am not joking, I thought you were being an ***** when you said "ED", because I thought you meant erectile dysfunction.because of the association from the late night commercials played intermittently on the science channel : P I actually think the meds are the problem, I don't know if I described it wrong or something. I mean I talked it over with a friend, and recently found out that there is a hunger between hunger pain, and eating for comfort. I don't know if this sounds weird or anything, but because of my meds, it's either one or the other depending on the time of day. I kind of need help figuring out how to stabilize that, assuming my metabolism is just rekked. I was told that if you like, don't eat all day, or have a habit of eating very little you can actually store weight and reck your metabolism too, but I'm not an expert. That's why I'm heeere, seeing if anyone else has had the same exp.

And I'm not really into doing exercise yet at all. I would like to get a handle on my roller-coaster-y depression and gaining back some of my previously enjoyed hobbies before I feel I could handle the pressure of sticking with something that seems like a another chore. I know I sound difficult, but I'm trying to be honest with myself.

I did enjoy being active, but on my terms, like fun stuff, like swimming, tennis, ice skating, classes and work outs tend to bore me, or exhaust me too quickly, and I stop having fun, and burn out.

But thanks so much, it gives me something to look forward too, if it turns out just lack of exercise is the only thing wrong once I can get there...