weight issues

Hi I am overweight like actually. But I think i may have an eating disorder. I don't eat a lot bit sometimes if I've ate too much I feel uncomfortable and sick. And I know it's wrong I do and I hate the thought of it or even to admit this is hard but I know someone who has an eating disorder and I'm kind of jealous like when I hear she's lost weight I try to be supportive but all I can think is how? I want to know? And I go on this crazy diet like celery celery celery and then throw up and I feel less crap about myself. I know she is Ill and I don't want.to be I'll. I just it's all I think about how much I weigh what size I am and seriously I'm massive like huge I'm sorry if this offends anyone. Really I am.

Its okay at least I am not offended. When I am manic I almost completely stop eating and when im depressed I overeat. I am also pretty big. You need to count how many calories you eat and how many you burn throughout the day I think its the rmr+activity = breakeven calorie point. Try to set a number of calories to eat per day maybe 500 so over a weak you lose one pound 500*7 = 3500 = 1 pound.