[jeter02]

Hi all. I am new to this site but wanted to post. I have been struggling with my eating disorder for about 8 years now. Started when i was just a kid really. I was in the hospital for it not too long ago and got discharged back in August. I now am at a point where im stuck! I am feeling like i am fat and worthless and that i need control, I have to control food again, I need it to work out all of it. I need to excersize, but i cant let my parents know im struggling again or im surely a goner. Will be shipped out again. I dont know what to do. There is too much going on for me to cope with and im alone and scared to death. I just need to disappear....

[Rapunzel]

Jeter,

I'm not sure what to say, but I'm glad that you are looking for support. We all need someone who understands what we are going through. I hope that we can be of some help to you here.

Still, if you can talk to your parents about your struggles, maybe they could help. Being open with them and asking for their support now would go over much better than being found out later, when your condition has gotten worse. You can even emphasize that point to them - that you are asking for their support, and would like them to take that healthy attitude into consideration and not put you in the hospital. Their help and support may be more beneficial to you than a hospital, especially with all that you have to deal with in your life right now. I can understand feeling like you need to control something, and how exercising to work out everything that you eat can seem like being in control, but ultimately the eating disorder controls you. You need to find another way to be in control - perhaps talking about your feelings, or thinking about and working towards your goals for your life. Maybe keeping a journal or creating something.

Talk to us more about the things you are coping with. Maybe we can come up with some ideas to help you.

{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}
Wendy


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