Just a number

I feel like just a number on a scale. Just a number on a clothing tag. Just a nothing. Just a nobody. Just so much pain. It hurts so much. I can't get a grip on this disorder to overcome it. I am so tired. So tired. It consumes me. How many times a day do I have to check my weight? How many times a day do I have to rid myself of any food I've eaten? How much more can I stand. I can't stand myself. I feel so disgusting and dirty. I want to be clean. I want to live well, but this is killing me.

(((((hugs))))... I have so felt your pain myself... just a number... and you know what... it is just a number....forget the number... concentrate on the food if you can... like someone gave me advice,,that I will pass to you..

eat a little every 1/2 hour... to 1 hour... a couple of bites.. and start ignoring the scale..

You can do this I know that you can....((((more hugs)))

Thank you. I will try so hard.

And I wish you the best too.

((((hugs))))

Yesterday was horrible, but today was better. All I can do is keep trying.

Hi roseleigh, I am glad today has been a better day for you. Hang in there...

I too get a little obsessed with the numbers. I only allow myself to weigh in once a day...even that seems to be too much sometimes. Every time I step off the scales I resolve to try to eat even less.