[girlN]

Hi I am a "recovered" anorexic. I had been eating normal and healthy for almost 4 years. The past 3 weeks I have not been myself. I can't stand the thought of eating. When I do eat it is like I can see myself getting fatter and fatter. How can this happen to me? I was fine for years. God I freaking hate this crap. Any one else have this happen to them after years of recovery?

[RozG]

yes i had a relapse after 5 years. to get over it and back to where you were well again you need to want to get better and have a strong support network around you. if you don't have a strong support network IRL you'll find one here. good luck to you...and post about your feelings/experiences if you can, it helps.

[girlN]

Today I ate cereal and I feel sssooo depressed. My mother and my b/f keep asking me if I am eating b/c I have lost 10 lbs in the past month. my boyfriend keeps asking if there is anything I want to talk about but all this is so very personal and he has never had someone in his life that has an eating issue so I am scared to say much to him. ((Thank you Kalamity Jane.))
How can you address such personal almost inexplicable things????

[RozG]

if you're asking how do you tell your b/f what's really going on inside your head, what's happened to cause your eating probs etc....if you really want him to know but just can't go there face to face...why not try writing it all down? if you still don't feel comfortable handing it to him then mail it. i always tell people that's the best thing to do even with parents, doctors, T's etc....if you can't say it then write it, if you can't hand it over then mail it.

hope this helps, sorry if not...good luck to you getting the help you need.