[jujubean22]

ok some backround. im am 15, 5'7'' about 118. i played basketball and work out about everyday and i eat pretty healthy. But since my school basketball seasoned ended ive lost the shape i was in and now i am changing. In the past couple of weeks i have been losing my appetite. i didnt eat lunch or dinner for about 5 days in a row and i just wasnt feeling hungry. i only ate a few hundred calorie things each day and that sustained me. everytime i did eat my stomach would hurt but i think its psychological. im think i am becoming obsessed with my self image and weight cuz everytime i see food i think about it and how many calories it probably has. i think i might be developing some sort of eating disorder.maybe anorexia? earlier today i was considering throwing up so i would feel mentally better about what iate today. if any one has any ideas about what this may be please help. i havent talked to my parents about it cause we dont get along but i talked to one friend via text that i havent been eating and she was worried but i just told her i didnt have a eating disorder. but im obsessed. help??
btw in the back of my mind i dont wanna lose weight but i cant stop thinking about food and not eating it.

[cloudyday]

Hi,

Welcome, I am glad you wrote. I see you are 15 and you mentioned you don't get along with your parents, but I really would suggest you see a doctor and get some sort of physical. There could be a physical reason why you are having issues with your appetite and it is best to get that checked out with a doctor. However it does sound like you do have some eating disordered thinking. I think it is great that you are reaching out early and not wanting this thing to get away from you. If you can go see a doctor and let him or her know what is going on.

There is hope, this thing does not have to win.

[itspeaks]

It is good that you realize this isn't normal before it is too late. Sometimes people go years before they admit that something is wrong. If you don't feel comfortable talking to your parents, maybe you could talk to a counselor at school? Anything you say is confidential unless you are going to hurt yourself or someone else I am pretty sure. You can PM me if you want ever.

[luckyyouxx]

A councellor at school is a great idea, they've probably dealt with issues like this before so they might be able to give you ideas on why this is happening and how you can feel better.
What if you joined another team, say like volleyball or soccer, or even did yoga or something like that? This way you'll feel better about eating the things that you want because you are still active. I know already that active people eat more in general because they burn more, maybe because you have stopped your basketball, you have just felt less hungry naturally. But still the obsessing thing is probably not good, and it would be great to talk to someone. And when you don't feel like eating, perhaps you should just make yourself anwyay, even if its something small like an apple.
But please pleeeease do not throw up - i have been bulimic for a year now and have a lot of problems going on, you think you will stop after one try but its never the case. so please don't start that.
good luck and stay positive!

[jujubean22]

Thanks all of you that have responded. Just an update: today i have eaten a muffin, string cheese, grapes, and a small bag of goldfish. i feel disappointed at myself for it. but i have a feeling that dispite the mental dissappointment it was probably good for my body.

[Christina86]

I'm glad you ate something. (((((((((jujubean22))))))))))))

Talking to a school counsellor or a teacher you trust would be a good idea.

[jujubean22]

Thanks for the help. For now im not gonna go to the doctors, but
i am gonna try to turn myself around.

[luckyyouxx]

awesome, im glad to hear that. and don't be dissapointed about eating, i bet your body is very happy that you did. its a good thing!

[jujubean22]

not a good day. ive only eaten half a pancake for breakfast and for lunch a small bag of goldfish.

thanks for the reply.

[jujubean22]

update:
im now 115 lbs. i finally told my best friend about it through text. it was onea the hardest things ive ever had to do. we still havent talked in person but hopefully it will be fine. i dont kno how much to tell her.
she already found out at my attempt of throwing up. so should i set boundaries?