Where is that happy feeling in being normal?

So I tried not to binge and purge - couldn't make it more than 3-4 days. So what happens in that time? I eat trying to bump up my calorie count to a normal amount, reduce my exercises to an hour and a half a day, and try not to binge and purge....reality... I binged on candy and sweets, I didn't exercise, I ate twice my calorie amount... I GAINED WEIGHT. I can not be in a happy medium- either one extreme or the other, but my "binge cycle" and "trying to be normal cycle" is OVER. I can't do that. It is too easy, once I allow myself to eat to jump up and binge and fall apart on everything else. No more! Sorry guys...this is the only place where I can talk about this and not feel chastised for being different.

please don't say "sorry".....

I so understand... the cycle.... no great words of wisdom...

just loving care and support....

Thank you for caring, freewill. -beth

no worries i feel the same way. theres no need to say sorry about the way you feel. hope ur feeling better

xoxo

thank you deki88... I am not feeling much better, but it helps to know there are people who feel similar to the way I feel.

I understand your cycle. Im a health major so i spend Hours reading up on everything that should and shouldnt be put in your body. If i eat just a little bit of something i know i shouldnt have....i go into a complete binge.

Hang in there. Finding that happy medium has been the hardest thing for me to try to do

(((((((((((Beth)))))))))))))))