so hungry!!!!

I want to eat like normal people do, this is horrible. I wish I did not feel so guilty about food..........i weighed lastnight at 112.3lbs, It freaked me out cause I still want to loose about 7 more pounds.........I drink alot of coffee w/splenda hoping that will fill me up...........HELP!!!! <font color="red"> </font>

All i can say is i know how you feel but i need to lose 26 more pounds, the pain emotionally and physically from starving hurts badly i know, don't you wish we could just feel like normal and lose weight with normal diet and exericse. I'm sorry you're feeling down, we're all here to support you.

........THANK YOU!!
i'M GLAD TO HAVE FOUND THIS WEBSITE,
KEEP IN TOUCH!!!

i wish the best for you!

hugs xxx

thank you

You want to be 105 lbs but is that really reasonable for your height? I don't know how tall you are but I know that we set unrealistic goals for ourselves because no matter how much weight we lose, we still think we are fat. It is just a downward spiral of "just a few more lbs and I will be happy" = but I know I am never happy. I want recovery but I want it without gaining a pound. Tomorrow I am going to a support group that meets once a month with my husband -family members are encouraged to come - so he can learn about anorexia. I don't think it will help me because I wont be able to talk in front of him but at least he will hear from other people about the illness. I found 2 support groups that meet once a week and went on intakes for both of them. I am waiting for a call back from one of them on Monday. It is terrifying to take this step toward recovery but getting worse is also terrifying. I am in relapse after 14 years of recovery and I am blown away at how quickly it sucked me down - so far, so fast. Anyway, back to you. Be careful. I am worried about you.

wow that is great that you found a suppport group and your hubby is going too!! yeah, recovery is a scary thing we want to be better yet we know what that will mean..........you can do it though!!! yes, it does suck you down quick, I wish I knew what triggers it (a relapse)
keep in touch and best of luck at the meeting!!

we went to the support group Saturday and it went well but I still haven't eaten much since then. My weight is still the same, though so I am eating enough to maintain. I am going to Aruba July 10th for 5 days with my husband and I don't really want to do anything about my ed until after that. 5 days in a bathing suit. Dont want to have to worry about "recovery" just want things as they are.
I will see a nutritionist when I come home, that was recommended to me at the group.