[bananasarecool]

im scared ive got an eating disorder. i think ive put weight on but i just eat unhealthily a lot. one or two of my friendsve said so. ive made myself sick before but it doesnt seem to work. i feel i cant do exercise and've quit all the stuff i used to do (swimming, dance, rock climbing) because i felt too ashamed to show my body in public. its disgusting. im disgusting. all i can do is skip a few meals and do what little i can in my room, but im stuck in a rut, im sure im getting fatter, uglier, disgusting.
me.

[vetswife]

Bananas, this is a terrible place to be, I have been there many of times. The only thing that makes me feel better about myself is to exercise, it's the only time that I feel that I'm doing something good for myself. It releases endorphins and good stuff like that (a natural high).

If you are making yourself sick you need to seek help or at the very least stop! You're right it doesn't help, it slows you metabolism down, and does a lot of damage to your body.

[darkrunner]

bananasarecool,
I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time.
It sounds like you are really hard on yourself. Sometimes what we see in the mirror isn't reality.
Nourishing your body with healthy food not only makes you healthy but makes you feel good about yourself too. Could you possibly talk to a nutritionist?

Be gentle with yourself,
kt

[bananasarecool]

i know its not right... i just want a quick fix, to be thin. i cant stand being this way and most of the time when i try to diet i end up giving up and eating more than i would in the first place. it just seems impossible. i feel stuck.

[darkrunner]

I think I understand what you mean when you say you feel stuck. I always thought the same way - that I could never lose weight, that if I could just be thin I would be happy and all the other problems in my life would go away, or at least they'd be easier to deal with.

But I have to tell you, even when I got to my goal weight (which was 125 -- I'm 5'5'') I still had problems and I still felt "fat" sometimes. I am having other problems now, but when I initially lost weight I did it the healthy way and it worked........it took a while and there were frustrations and setbacks but it worked

Dieting is not the answer..... the answer is to nourish body and exercise to be strong. Go back to the sports you used to do like rock climbing - that is awesome! Eat lots of fruits and veggies and whole grains. Don't cut out any foods entirely -- have sweets and snacks in moderation.

Are you sure you really need to lose weight at all? All bodies are different and no one looks like the models you see on magazines - even the models don't look like that because they edit and airbrush the pictures!!!! Society and the media set up an impossible standard for women and then we kill ourselves trying to meet it and hate ourselves for not being able to.

I don't know if any of this is helpful....maybe you've heard it all before.

Bananas, please believe me that the mirror may be lying to you .....the number on the scale doesn't really matter....it doesn't really have anything to do with who you are.
Try to take care of yourself.
kt

[marcelodlanod]

Just try to think like this:... 'i know i have weaknesses... but i can decide which ones are going to condition my life...' and believe me, you have more power to reach your goals than you think.. Stay positive, repit possitive thoughts even if you dont believe them, soon you are going to.. be happy!! and do rock climbing!! that sounds great and fun!!