[BallerinaToes]

I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder, just to start it off.

In the last couple months I've been really self conscious and counting calories, I stay under 1200 every day and try to eat as little food as possible unless its healthy fruit and veggies or negative calorie food.

I go to the gym a lot too and I'm taking extra dance classes to help me lose weight.

I lost 7 pounds in like 3 months and I'm now 109 pounds, 5'4".

I don't like to think I have a disorder but that I'm just dieting, but I'm worried because I've read symptoms.

And I feel fat when I look in the mirror, and I feel accomplished when I can ignore hunger pains and not eat.

Is this alright? Or should I be worried and try to change? Because I'd really like to get to 105 pounds or less but I don't want to push myself over the edge or anything.

[eskielover]

One of the main things that will really tell the truth is if you get to the weight you have as your goal, & keep going. Then you have a problem. There are many symptoms that are anorexia, but many people to not fit some of them. When that happens, there is the diagnosis of EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified). It sounds like you are on the road for trouble, but not if you can be satisfied with a specified weight & can stay there & it is not below your defined lowest body weight.

I went 16 lbs below my lowest minimum weight last time before I was forced to get help. This time is my weight isn't dangerous yet & I keep hoping that it will quit before it gets there. I do have dr's monitoring it, so can't get away with what happened last time.

I don't think you can get pushed over the edge unless you want to. Then you have a problem.

Keep us posted on how you are doing. I can let you know that having an ED is no picnic, & definitely is something you want to avoid...never go there.

Saw you peek into chat this evening...look forward to you joining in during the future.
Debbie

[barrett]

well i don't think that you should take this too far, because i started out the same way that you are and became dangerously underweight and with a severe eating disorder. i wasted almost three years of my life worring about my weight. just be careful....