[OpinionatedMama]

Now I know I'm not FAT. I sure FEEL fat though. I'm 5'7 150lbs. I just had 3 babies back to back, my oldest is 2.5, my youngest is 8 months. So I should probably be giving myself a little leeway. But it's HARD. I feel like a disgusting cow. Before I got pregnant the first time, I was a Jrs size 3/5. Now? Ugh...

I feel completely irrational about my weight. I can't be intimate with my husband because I feel so disgusting. I won't change clothes in front of him.

I eat a lot of food. Bad food. Well, GOOD food but it's bad FOR me LOL! I eat 3-4 Otis Spunkmeyer Chocolate Chocolate Chip muffins per day. I am a very picky eater. I also don't have a lot of time to try to cook healthy meals with taking care of all the kids practically by myself (my husband works approx 100 hours per week).

I don't feel like I can change my lifestyle/eating habits. I feel like there's got to be a different way. I *DID* join the YMCA but I know it's only a matter of time before I quit going. Plus exercising isn't going to help if I'm still consuming upwards of 3500 calories, 100 grams of fat per day.

So I'm looking at different ways... water pills... laxatives.... and I'm having a hard HARD time not taking them to try to lose weight that way...... anything, anything to lose weight.......

I dunno... it's not going to happen anyways..... Iknow I'll never lose the weight....... I am just scared.

Maybe your husband can help you with your eating habits. Also.. sounds like you have some body image problems and maybe a therapist can help. Even if you go for just a few sessions.. its often helpful to talk to someone.

[OpinionatedMama]

I've just started seeing a therapist... I've got all kinds of issues to work out...... that hour just doesn't seem long enough...

[NoLeafClover]

Hi,my name is Theresa,Im bulimic.Take my word for it,Laxitives,water pills dont work,they actually make u gain weight from improper digestion.Not to mention they can ruin your whole bowel system.It gets really scary,so please try not to use them.If you wanna talk im allways willing to listen and offer support.

[Genevieve]

Yeah, things like water pills and laxatives will only mess you up a lot. DO NOT take those. It's better to be honestly heavy than to screw up your body with those things. How would you like to have your whole belly swell up horribly, just because your bowel can no longer move anything through it? Maybe get an ostomy bag to fix that? No, it's not worth it. As for the water pills, only take those if you think seizures would be fun.

So, what do you do? Well, you look at what's behind your eating. You think about WHY you don't eat healthier food, WHY you eat things that you know aren't helping you. (You might also think about how you're feeding your kids. If you don't have time to fix yourself decent food, what are you feeding them? Are you setting them up for eating disorders in the future?)

I'm a picky eater, too. And I've got an eating disorder. You don't want to be here. You don't want to walk into this. Think about the health consequences: I've got thin, dry, brittle hair; osteoporosis; cardiac abnormalities; abdominal obesity despite being underweight; I'm cold all the time; I get dizzy a lot; and I don't have much energy to get anything done. How would you like to be like that? I couldn't take care of one child right now, let alone three. Not enough energy, I need a nap each day more than the kid would. Don't bother coming to join me in this misery. It's just not worth it.

What to do? See about getting a couple of consultations iwht a nutritionist. For your kids, if not for yourself. It's worth it. And think about MAKING the time to feed yourself well. It's best for all concerned.