21 year old... confused.

Hey everyone, new member here. I am confused as too what is going on lately. I will start out by saying I have NO history of any diseases/condtions/disorders pertaining to mental health besides minor anxiety specifically performance anxiety in the past which has been fine for the past few years. The only medication I take is an SSRI lexapro at a very low dose of 5 mg daily. The problem I am having is that I feel very dull when I feel "normal". I feel motivated and want to work and do homework and achieve great things only when I feel "SOMETHING". I VERY RARELY take tramadol and when I do I feel so much better. I am very introverted and keep to myself. I am NOT lonely and I do not feel sad or depressed. I feel fine most of the time but I never laugh I never have moments of excitement and I just feel bland. I work in the medical field and am planning to be in medical school within the next 3 years. I love what I do and I am absolutely addicted to the idea of being a doctor and helping people. I LOVE everything about medicine as far as I have seen over the past few years working as a medical assistant. I just don't feel like things are joyful. I am laid back and just don't understand why I feel so emotionless. I have a great relationship with a girl I've been with for almost four years. An awesome best friend and a loving family. What could the issue be?! I just feel like I need to "feel" something to enjoy my day. For example if I could feel like I was on a narcotic every day it would be great. Despite what you just read I have NO addiction to any drug or medication. I just want to feel something.

Thanks to anyone who has any insight on this!!

I think tramadol works the same way antidepressants do, in the same part of the brain. Maybe upping your antidepressant would work. It's an awful low dose.

Thanks for your reply, the only reason I have been hesitant to up my dose is for fear of sexual side effects related to most SSRI's but I will have to consider that I suppose, maybe I'll try jumping to 7.5 for now and see how things go. Have you heard of tramadol being prescribed for such purposes?

Medications can cause what you are feeling. You may not need medications anymore. Talk to your doctor about this. You seem to be quite normal. No need to be hyper. Just be as laid back as much as you like!