I'm so glad I have signed up here

Feels good to be part of community again. I used to be active on reddit but then gave up due to depression. Anyways, I have one small question, which has been bothering me for months now. Let me quickly explain this situation :

Suppose that I am unemployed. Which means, I have to apply online for jobs. Now I'm sorta a perfectionist. This means that I tailor my resume for every job application (I am beginning to start my career in a field where there are few opening but are considered as skillful and indispensable professionals, so every application counts).

It's a huge task to customize or tailor every resume. Now when I think about applying for a job, I think of or rather I realistically picturize myself customizing resumes sitting in library and this very though depresses me and so I procrastinate.

I didn't tell you the complete story. The reason this resume customization is such a huge task is because I tend to be perfectionist - every word and every statement has to make sense. Sometimes I would spend as long as an hour (worse, I have even spent hours) to tailor one resume. And when I procrastinate on resume customization - I can procrastinate for days, weeks or even months.

The big question : It's not procrastination that worries me, it's what triggers it worries me the most in life. What is that "I realistically picturize myself customizing resumes sitting in library" called ? I mean, it's no daydream or maladaptive dreaming ! I have been told to have active imagination. But I tend to realistically visualize a lot of things quite well : one small example, if I someone says ,"Hey, lets go out for movie", I realistically visualize myself in line , waiting to buy tickets, or buy pop-corn at that very instant !

How to stop thinking or visualizing about future events ? Is it dopamine or serotonin ?

Thank you so much for listening. Awaiting for you replies.

About your perfectionism - do you think it might be OCD-related? Can you tolerate small mistakes related to grammar or punctuation within your resumes?

Why don't you just make several versions of your resume and then choose the one right for the job, maybe with a little editing? It's ok to make things easier on yourself.

Is your future visualizing troublesome to you? I think it's normal to visualize possible scenarios. Not normal to obsess over them. A good imagination is a good thing to have. Obsessive thoughts or OCD tendencies not so much.

No. I cannot. That's why I revise it every now and then.

OCD - Well, I think I suffer from OCD but my study table and surrounding bed-space is so messy these days. I don't care about it these days.

Thanks IrishBlossom

Well, someone did suggest to have different version of resume. But my perfectionist mind said ,"Everyone has different resumes. Let me be more perfect by tailoring resumes to mention company's name and position I am applying to.."

You see, I waste my energy on trivial things - that I miss out on important things to be done in life. How did you arrive to OCD conclusion ? I thought OCD meant neatness freak

OCD means obsessive-compulsive disorder. It can present in a lot of different ways. Basically it means any compulsion you can't control and is causing you problems. I can't say if you have OCD or not, just that perfectionism is a trait of having it. You might see a doctor if it becomes problematic.

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......"I tend to realistically visualize a lot of things quite well".....

That is called smart thinking. More people should do this. You have good thinking abilities, and memory.

OCD can be anything. Any obsession or compulsion. Not just neat freak. I know people whose OCD is safety related like obsessed about locking doors or health related etc

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Divine - what's your combat mechanism ?

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Customizing each resume to tailor it to the job is what smart people do! Of course it takes hours. Of course it gets old. Of course it can lead to procrastination. I don't know what kind of employment you are looking for, but there is a saying "It's a full-time job to find a full-time job."

It's a full-time job to find a full time job ~

It's from a book called "What color is your parachute"

How was your first job hunt ?

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