Internal dialogues

I am sorry, this is too long for me to read. English is not my first language, and I have concentration problems. Can you summarize it in one short paragraph as you probably read it already?

I would but its not my words to summerize or change. All it is is discribing dissociation. All you need to know is you were dissociating. Likely daydreaming or even possible

"Dissociative Episodes. During traumatic events, extreme stress, or overwhelming emotions, you may “blank out,” “get lost in the carpet,” or even fall asleep. When you return you will not be able to recall where you mind went, or what you were thinking about. These dissociative episodes occur to help you avoid dealing with what is happening around or inside you."

...When reading I have to go back and reread, because whatever part of my brain was reading certainly didn't speak to the part of my brain that wouldn't stop having a play out of what might take place. ...

Sounds like me

I read what was written for the dissociation and towards the end I was having trouble focusing my mind started feeling a bit fuzzy and my mind started to wander I brought it back to finish reading it however I'm unsettled. It basically says you probably had a horrible experience as a child and needed your mind to leave your body so the event wouldn't destroy the core of who you are. In time hurts get stored in compartments of yourself
I actually met those parts of me yesterday on a very long walk I took. That is so very weird.

For me, I didn't experience horrible childhood, I mean, my parents were/are critical, but otherwise they are loving. I think it is more that I spend a lot of time alone, and since our brains are designed to socialize and talk, I compensate by talking to myself. I don't know. Today, I realized that I do it most of the time, but they are not always negative. It depends on the mood, if I am down, the dialogues will be negative, but if I am happy, the dialogues will be more to my side

I did. And I guess I learned to disassociate. I was not even aware of it until just now. Because I read the post. Honestly thank you for starting this conversation, because I was kinda freaked out but so relaxed from what I experienced yesterday. Now I know it wasn't just some weird episode. I met all the parts and pieces of me and I do not feel empty inside anymore. If that makes any sense

Idk much about "normal"... I guess that's something you gotta gauge internally. (Subjective). As far as internal Dialogue , I do it all the time... I'm not generally distressed by it although I do know the embarrassment of relizing I am in public and actually doing it out loud or mouthing along and making facial reactions as well But I feel personally that it is generally just a way of processing and sorting feelings.... I think it is only problematic if you find yourself stuck repeatedly on certain scenarios ( ruminating), harshly judging yourself over the shoulda coulda wouldas, and/or can't engage in the present when it matters thus missing new info cuz u are too focused on the past, for me that doesn't really include autopilot tasks like the supermarket or daily transit route. I feel we live in a world that doesn't accept the need for proper amounts of quiet time, so I process while doing the dishes, walking down the street, in the supermarket etc... I guess my rather overly detailed derailed msg to you is this..... If you feel it helps you deal and more forward (healthy)... If you find it distressing (seek help)

I went out to buy some groceries. The store is about 10 minutes away. I went on foot. I didn't realize how I got there, and how I came back home. I was very occupied with my thoughts. I usually create these scenarios in my head and make a dialogue out of it. At some point I believe I was humming noticeably and making some facial expressions as if the scenario and dialogue were real. Is this normal, or I should worry about it?

I do this kind of stuff all the time - easily walking around, especially when it's a familiar route, and almost forgetting how I got there. And YES to making faces in time with my thoughts. Sometimes I worry if I do it publicly people will think there's something wrong with me.