[Aina]

I have always been prone to mood swings, but this time it's more severe than usual.

It started a month ago when I got myself so much into my work I barely had time for anything else. I felt really really active and productive which was absolutely great, I felt almost "high" for about 2 weeks in a raw. The first week was really intense, I couldn't really sleep or relax at all, the second was more subtle but I still felt very good.

After those 2 weeks of feeling good, I got back to more or less neutral mood. I didn't feel happy, I didn't feel sad, I was sort of in an emotional limbo, the most neutral state of emotion I can think of. It lasted for about another week or perhaps a bit more.

I actually tried hard to get back on the ride and to feel that "high" again, but I wasn't able to do it anymore. Instead now I feel super irritated, tired and angry at the whole world and I don't even know why. I feel like I can't focuse and everything is sort of blurred... I feel chaos, like the emotion inside of me just keep on mixing and mixing and I can't relax.

I usually don't experience such serve quick mood swings. Usually the neutral period can last for a month sometimes even few months before it throws me back to some strong mood so I don't know what's happening right now...

Does anyone have any idea what this can be? And how to deal with it?

[pegasus]

According to your sanity score (below) you are trying to cope with a variety of issues. Have you thought of keeping a diary or journal to see if there is a trigger or pattern? Sometimes there isn't something you can pinpoint it on, in anycase have a think on what you can do to help yourself cope better in these rough times.

[avlady]

a journal may be good for this situation you're in.

I have a another thought. Perhaps you haven't swung into a low at all. Irritability, aggrivation, and an inability to relax are another stage of swinging into hypomania. It seems to me that this goes along with the sense of elation you felt immediately prior.

[Aina]

Originally Posted by rcat

I have a another thought. Perhaps you haven't swung into a low at all. Irritability, aggrivation, and an inability to relax are another stage of swinging into hypomania. It seems to me that this goes along with the sense of elation you felt immediately prior.

I can't really say whether I am in a low mood... I actually don't feel sad or depressed, I just feel angry with myself and the world and also really tired and inactive. It's the lazy tired nervous energy I can't really cope with...It's like being sleep walking while having an energy that eats me up.

I am not officially diagnosed with bipolar so I don't know if I can really talk about hypomania at all.

Today I had college lessons during the morning and then I went to a pub with friends and eventually spent the whole rest of the day drinking beer and smoking being absolutely unproductive and lazy **** and I feel like I want to punch myself in the face for this ****** meaningless day.