[Shy-chan]

I didn't know where else to put this question, but...is there a name for a person who...I don't know how to put it. Its like...I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I hate my age. I hate it all and it's really upsetting. Like...I look in the mirror and...it's not me. Too tall, chest too big, curves present... I can't stand it.

It's extra frustrating because I can't explain it right. I don't feel my age, but it's not in the way that most people mean. Sometimes, I'll literally cry because I can't stand my own body. I'm like a child stuck in a 19 year old's body and it's really upsetting and sometimes it's just too much. Is there a name for this or is it so strange that it's never happened to others before?

[-jimi-]

I'm not sure what it is called. I like the sorta basic ways I look like some facial features, my hands, my hair. But I miss my child body that was light as a butterfly. Even if I would get really skinny I still wouldn't have that. Also I hate certain parts because of gender dysphoria. And I AM extremely age dysphoric as well, my brain seems to mature ultra slowly so I'm basically maybe around 13 now starting to learn this and that about life. And my body is middle aged.

For me idk if it's some kind of identity thing, if others just care less if their inner selves match their bodies, or if my inner self really is very different than theirs.

I adore old people. I think many old people are so very pretty. Still it scares me to age, because I'm not even done with my youthhood mentally yet...

[avlady]

most probably is that you're just getting older. i notice wrinkles on my own face and dry feet.

is this perhaps Body Dysmorphia Disorder (BDD)?

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by -jimi-

I'm not sure what it is called. I like the sorta basic ways I look like some facial features, my hands, my hair. But I miss my child body that was light as a butterfly. Even if I would get really skinny I still wouldn't have that. Also I hate certain parts because of gender dysphoria. And I AM extremely age dysphoric as well, my brain seems to mature ultra slowly so I'm basically maybe around 13 now starting to learn this and that about life. And my body is middle aged.

For me idk if it's some kind of identity thing, if others just care less if their inner selves match their bodies, or if my inner self really is very different than theirs.

I adore old people. I think many old people are so very pretty. Still it scares me to age, because I'm not even done with my youthhood mentally yet...

That sounds like how it is for me, only I'm more of a 6 year old than a 13 year old and the me on the inside never grows up.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by avlady

most probably is that you're just getting older. i notice wrinkles on my own face and dry feet.

The problem is that I hate that. I hate having a mature body. I hate looking into the mirror and not seeing the child that I feel I am. When I look into the mirror, I don't see myself and all I do see upsets me. I despise my own body for maturing without the rest of me.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

is this perhaps Body Dysmorphia Disorder (BDD)?

I'm not sure. I've looked up that term before and though it sounds similar, it doesn't seem to completely fit the situation.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by -jimi-

I'm not sure what it is called. I like the sorta basic ways I look like some facial features, my hands, my hair. But I miss my child body that was light as a butterfly. Even if I would get really skinny I still wouldn't have that. Also I hate certain parts because of gender dysphoria. And I AM extremely age dysphoric as well, my brain seems to mature ultra slowly so I'm basically maybe around 13 now starting to learn this and that about life. And my body is middle aged.

For me idk if it's some kind of identity thing, if others just care less if their inner selves match their bodies, or if my inner self really is very different than theirs.

I adore old people. I think many old people are so very pretty. Still it scares me to age, because I'm not even done with my youthhood mentally yet...

Well for me, it's more like I'm 6 and my inner self doesn't age. I feel like something is wrong with me for this though. At least, from what you have said, your inner self is slowly aging, but mine hasn't progressed at all.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

is this perhaps Body Dysmorphia Disorder (BDD)?

I don't think so. At least, I've looked it up before and though it sounds similar, it doesn't seem to fit my situation.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by avlady

most probably is that you're just getting older. i notice wrinkles on my own face and dry feet.

I know I'm getting older on the outside. Problem is that the rest of me isn't and I hate everything about my body.

[Artchic528]

I see, you're identifying inside as a 6 year old, and your reality is that this part of you hasn't grown up beyond that age, but your body doesn't match because it's too mature, too adult looking. As a result, you feel very uncomfortable in your own skin because your body isn't what you feel it should be, age wise.

I would talk to a therapist about this. I think this could be a result of childhood trauma, or some form of DID, but I could be wrong.

I think if you look at interviews with many older people online, they say that they still feel young inside. I do.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by ValentinaVVV

I think if you look at interviews with many older people online, they say that they still feel young inside. I do.

Do they feel like children? Like they truly are on the inside and their outside shows a completely different person?

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by Artchic528

I see, you're identifying inside as a 6 year old, and your reality is that this part of you hasn't grown up beyond that age, but your body doesn't match because it's too mature, too adult looking. As a result, you feel very uncomfortable in your own skin because your body isn't what you feel it should be, age wise.

I would talk to a therapist about this. I think this could be a result of childhood trauma, or some form of DID, but I could be wrong.

What is DID? And I don't know if I could admit this aloud to another person...

[Raindropvampire]

Shy-chan have you looked up age dysphoria or Age Identity Disorder to see if those fit how you feel?

[Artchic528]

Well, DID is Dissociative Identity Disorder. It's when a person dissociates from reality due to either a traumatic childhood incident or incidents.

Again, I'm no psychologist, so I can't diagnose you. However, I do understand what you are feeling. It's actually similar in my head to gender identity disorder, but with age instead of gender. You don't associate the body you have, with who you truly are.

I know it's hard to talk to someone about this, but think of the help you'd be getting. Trust me, there isn't much that will surprise or embarrass them.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by Raindropvampire

Shy-chan have you looked up age dysphoria or Age Identity Disorder to see if those fit how you feel?

I have tried looking it up, but all I get is results for gender dysphoria instead and the one result that had to do with the age one sounded like it was only talking about people who are adult babies and that's not me.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by Artchic528

Well, DID is Dissociative Identity Disorder. It's when a person dissociates from reality due to either a traumatic childhood incident or incidents.

Again, I'm no psychologist, so I can't diagnose you. However, I do understand what you are feeling. It's actually similar in my head to gender identity disorder, but with age instead of gender. You don't associate the body you have, with who you truly are.

I know it's hard to talk to someone about this, but think of the help you'd be getting. Trust me, there isn't much that will surprise or embarrass them.

I just looked it up and the definition I saw made it seem like its for people with split personalities, the kind on TV where when one is in place, the other has no memory of what that one did during the time. If that's correct then its not me. I only have one personality, one me.

[-jimi-]

It is something to do with identity. Hard to say what and how it happened. When a man is born in a girl's body, most people these days do not want to "cure" that, and transgenderism is OK. But with age dysphoria, there seems to be other theory behind it. That something "went wrong" and should be cured, the brain should be cured because look at the body, it cannot lie!

I find it somewhat discouraging it is seen this way. I actually don't know why it is wrong and sick to have a young identity.

It causes problems sure, but a lot of things do in life.

If I was given the option to have a younger body or mature mentally suddenly, I would never ever choose the latter. I want to be me still. If other people think it is silly I act like a kid, fine. But I have always wanted to be me all my life and many people have told me I am wrong in this and that and should change who I am.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by -jimi-

It is something to do with identity. Hard to say what and how it happened. When a man is born in a girl's body, most people these days do not want to "cure" that, and transgenderism is OK. But with age dysphoria, there seems to be other theory behind it. That something "went wrong" and should be cured, the brain should be cured because look at the body, it cannot lie!

I find it somewhat discouraging it is seen this way. I actually don't know why it is wrong and sick to have a young identity.

It causes problems sure, but a lot of things do in life.

If I was given the option to have a younger body or mature mentally suddenly, I would never ever choose the latter. I want to be me still. If other people think it is silly I act like a kid, fine. But I have always wanted to be me all my life and many people have told me I am wrong in this and that and should change who I am.

That's been the same for me. People, especially my family, has been trying to change me all my life. I used to try to be who they wanted me to be, but I was even more miserable and I was still constantly treated like I wasn't good enough.

Its strange to hear though that there's someone who doesn't think I'm a freak or sick because of what I identify as. I don't understand why I do, but I'm tired of being afraid of what others will think.

[amandalouise]

there is no mental disorder where a person identifies as a 6 year old rather than their biological age. there is a mental disorder where a person identifies female or male in the opposite gendered body (gender dysphoria)

there is also a mental disorder where a person has two or more alternate personalties that take control with their own sense of agency and such (the actual diagnostics are in my link at the bottom of my post)

but no mental disorder where a person identifies as a 6 year old in an adult body, for example like a trans gendered person considers their self to be male or female in the opposite gendered body

that said

....Here in my location.....there is a completely normal phrase for people who identify as a child in an adult body....Peter Pan syndrome and Female Peter Pan Syndrome. its not a mental disorder. its a situation where an adult identifies\feels\prefers\ wants to remain a child despite having an adult body.

to find out what this is called in your own location you will need to contact your own treatment providers.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

there is no mental disorder where a person identifies as a 6 year old rather than their biological age. there is a mental disorder where a person identifies female or male in the opposite gendered body (gender dysphoria)

there is also a mental disorder where a person has two or more alternate personalties that take control with their own sense of agency and such (the actual diagnostics are in my link at the bottom of my post)

but no mental disorder where a person identifies as a 6 year old in an adult body, for example like a trans gendered person considers their self to be male or female in the opposite gendered body

that said

....Here in my location.....there is a completely normal phrase for people who identify as a child in an adult body....Peter Pan syndrome and Female Peter Pan Syndrome. its not a mental disorder. its a situation where an adult identifies\feels\prefers\ wants to remain a child despite having an adult body.

to find out what this is called in your own location you will need to contact your own treatment providers.

None of it fits though. Thank you for bring up the Peter Pan Syndrome though since it is the first I've hear of it. Still, I looked it up and, though it sounded like it could be, it doesn't fit me.

[-jimi-]

That is about avoiding adult responsibilities. I'm a very responsible person. I pay my bills on time (usually) and I keep my promises. People can rely on me.

There are some adult things I never do though, but I never connected those with being "younger" in my head.

Maybe I'm just a different species.

[Shy-chan]

Originally Posted by -jimi-

That is about avoiding adult responsibilities. I'm a very responsible person. I pay my bills on time (usually) and I keep my promises. People can rely on me.

There are some adult things I never do though, but I never connected those with being "younger" in my head.

Maybe I'm just a different species.

That's how it is for me too. That's why this syndrome doesn't fit me.

[-jimi-]

Identity "issues" are really only connected to borderline if you go by the book. I don't understand why. It wouldn't be that weird if identity stuff comes with other things, right?