[Jaydynsmom]

I don't even know if this is the right place to post but i need help. I've been taking Zoloft 25mg for about 6 weeks. I feel like I'm going crazy. I just need to know if this is happening to anyone else. There's a lot of back story but I will start from the beginning. I went to my moms in August for a family get together. I REMEBER this so well. My mom and my sister and I were sitting in the garden having a glass of wine and my sister says she has something she has to tell me. She then proceeds to tell me that she had an affair with my husband. It only happened one time. I remember that day so clearly. My mom had on a new dress that I liked bed and we talked about where she got it and how much she paid for it. I remember the flowers and the smell in the air. I remember feeling hurt and then numb. I didn't say anything to anyone for a long time, trying to decide what to do. Then on Thursday I decided that I couldn't live with this anymore so I sent my sister a message on Facebook and told her that I was leaving my husband. And that her and I needed to talk. This is where things get really messed up. My mom called me right away. She says that this conversation did not happen. That everything else that happened that day did, but not this conversation. I'm so confused. I have spent all weekend thinking about this and I knew it did. But now I'm really confused because my mom just sent me a picture of us that day and she wasn't wearing a dress. And she says that we never discussed her new dress because there wasn't one. She keeps asking how I got home and I cannot remember that no matter how hard I try. I assume I went with my sister because she drove me there but would I have gotten in a car with her after this?? I don't understand but the more my mom and my husband tell me the more it feels like this isn't possible. And some of the things I remember are correct but some are not!! Is it possible that I am remembering something that just did not happen??? I'm so confused. I FEEL alike this happened but I know logically that it doesn't make sense. My husbands at his parents, my sister won't talk to me. I just need to know if this has happened to anyone else!!! I feel like a crazy person. Help!!

[mindwrench]

I have experienced a similar situation where my memory is different from that of others. I questioned too if I remember wrong, or if the others got together and agreed upon an alternate story.

I hope you can reconcile your memories with the days events in a way that helps you. I think there are times we remember things that didn't happen, but I don't think that every questionable scenario means we made it up. Hopefully you can keep the lines of communication open with your family and husband, to find the truth of your memories and what is real. I have lost people from my life because of believing things that were not right. I hope you can keep all your relationships, and find resolve and the support you need.

Your medical provider who prescribed your zoloft needs to be aware of your feelings too, as you may be experiencing side effects causing altered perceptions.

And welcome to the forums. There are so many wise people here with so much to offer, hopefully they will be along too. (not me, I'm a rookie)

[Jaydynsmom]

Thank you so much. I'm just so confused and I feel so alone right now. The more I think about this the more I am convinced it didn't happen... but I FEEL hurt and it feels so real. I know my sister wouldn't do this and my husband has never been unfaithful. When I think about all the facts I know it can't be possible. But how could it feel so real? My mother has always always been honest and straightforward with me. He's never lied to me before and none of this makes sense. I'm going to call my GP first thing in the morning and try and get in. Im afraid to continue to take these pills! I don't know how I will ever know the truth fully if I have to face this didn't happen as I remember it when I FEEL deeply hurt and it feels so real! I just need to know if this has happened to anyone else or if I'm going crazy because it sure feels like I am... again, thank you for your kindness. I feel very alone right now.

[LucyG]

Antidepressants have some very nasty side-effects including memory loss. Google 'zoloft side-effects, false memories, memory loss' and any other similar terms you can think of to describe what happened to you.

My sister is on an AD and has fugue states where she 'comes to' and doesn't know what she's doing, has lost time, etc., etc. She won't believe me that it's a side-effect of her meds but it is.