I feel sad. I need support

I feel sad for something really stupid. I feel sad because I feel like I spent too much money even though I didn't even buy what I wanted to. I was thinking of getting these perfect pillows from work but I didn't have my checks with me so I couldn't. Now I feel guilty because I thought of buying them. I only spent $10 in the past 2 days and I've made much more then that from working. I just feel guilty that I want to spend money. I bought groceries on Monday and something my dog needed and yesterday was just the $10 I feel bad. I have SAD and I think it started early or something. I work a lot but I don't do much else. I can't concentrate on anything else. I take my job seriously and do a good job it's just I'm hurting inside.

Hmmmm. Are you Bipolar perchance. Wanting to spend money is pretty classic; especially on stuff we don't neccesarily require. I'm sure other illnesses can lead to this too. Koodos though for sticking to your guns. But, do you think if you did have cheques with you that you would have purchased them? Perhaps then making it a habit of keeping them at home might be a way of curtailing doing so.

I have the urge to spend money all the time (and yes I'm Bipolar). At least I don't have any to spend right now. But spending is what I do when I have it.

I feel guilty when I spend it
I feel like poop when I don't. It's like a withdrawl from an addiction I suppose.