[PsychicKitty]

Hello, I am fairly new here. I would like to know if I have a disorder:

Here are my abnormalities:

I don’t like anything, I obsess over it to the point I cry whenever I think about it, mostly characters or even real life people.
I like to target a weak person who has no friends, befriend them and turn them against one person, then introduce them to others and watch as dislike for one person spreads.

Possible trigger:

I like torturing animals.

I frequently get sad whenever I think of how the entire universe will end what’s and point of anything?
Whenever I get excited, I move my hands back and forth at the wrist.
I like to change my personality a lot whenever I get obsessed with a person or character.
I speak too loudly and too fast and I mess up whenever I talk to people. They can’t follow my train of thought.
I can’t focus on one thing for a long time- I’m improving on this but it’s still a problem.
I have friends, but they get boring and I get obsessed with another friend.
Sound always is too loud for me. I’m sensitive to loud sounds.
I laugh at sad things.
I hate when my workspace is cluttered. But it’s only my workspace that makes me mad.
All my friends are there because they are of use to me.

[Skeezyks]

Hello PsychicKitty: I'm sorry but we here on PC cannot diagnose you. Our purpose here is to provide one another with support & to share experiences. (Perhaps other members who read your post may have some thoughts they can share.) Mental health diagnosis is for mental health professionals... psychiatrists, psychologists & other mental health therapists. (Perhaps you see one?) However, as you read through members' posts in the various forums, here on PC, you may begin to develop a sense of what may be going on with you.

[Yours_Truly]

I like to target a weak person who has no friends, befriend them and turn them against one person, then introduce them to others and watch as dislike for one person spreads.

Possible trigger:

I like torturing animals.

I find these two behaviors very disturbing. I think it is imperative that you speak with a therapist or counselor to find out why you do this.

There is no need to spread more cruelty in the world. We as humans are capable of such tremendous caring and compassion. It is far more honorable to spread kindness.

I hope you're able to come to a better understanding of yourself and have a profound change of heart.

[PsychicKitty]

I am aware that your diagnosis will not be concrete, but shouldn't my abnormalities at least sound like something?

And I'm not in a situation to contact a therapist. These things don't interfere with my life in general, just sometimes.

[Crazy Hitch]

Are you in therapy? I think you need it.

[Unrigged64072835]

For some of the things you are doing you definitely need professional help.

[sabby]

No one here can diagnose you Psychickitty. We are not professionals but peers that may or may not have had some of the same issues as you are dealing with.

The previous members who suggested that you may need some real life help are giving you the best support out there. When symptoms rise to the level of interfering with our lives, we should seek out some professional assistance with those symptoms. Doing this can at least give you a baseline for what you may be dealing with and hopefully some help in how to deal best with those issues.

You definitely have some alarming traits that probably would do you very well to have a professionals' opinion.

I wish you well!
sabby

[amandalouise]

in my state (new york) what you posted is called being a danger to one self and others. Depending upon the age and how compliant with treatment options a person with these problems is in my own location, different things happen.

a special treatment program is developed between the person, their therapist and their psychiatrist, its called WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan) where a person gets an assessment of what all their physical and mental health needs are and treatment goals taylored to the person in need, that address those issues are worked on...

example... medication, therapy and classes\ therapy techniques on how to not do those harmful behaviors you posted about. Sometimes it may require inpatient or residential care.

for someone who is a minor a similar program is set up and sometimes it also requires inpatient care / residential programs.

for those who are not compliant and continue to do the kinds of things that you posted well theres a justice system in place where the police may arrest/ charge for things like assault and being a danger to one self and others including animals. then during the court hearings a judge makes the choice of inpatient care at a mental facility until the doctors, psychiatrists and therapists file reports to the court stating the person is no longer a danger to their self and others. or the judge can choose to impose a sentence of prison time.

as you can see here in my state it goes much easier on a person with the problems you posted if they seek out treatment and follow their treatment plans. Im guessing since you took the time to post here that you may be willing to seek treatment.

my suggestion is contact your insurance company (yes you can pay out of your own money for treatment but here in america all americans are supposed to have health insurance, its the law nation wide now)your insurace company can tell you who you are signed up with for treatment providers (medical doctors, therapists, psychiatrists and most times but not always dental care) then you just call those treatment providers and schedule an appointment with them.

[Thunder Bow]

Maybe you are here fishing for reasons to feel bad about yourself, and trying to get us to affirm that, by posting what you posted. You can heal, and I am not taking the bait.

[PsychicKitty]

So you guys are not allowed to even partially diagnose me????
I did some research.
I think that I'm a psychopath or have a moderate form of aspergers.

NO. I don't feel bad for myself. Im just curious.

I saw that you guys mentioned or helped several people in the " not sure what this could be" threads. Can't you tell me to check out a disorder??

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by PsychicKitty

So you guys are not allowed to even partially diagnose me????
I did some research.
I think that I'm a psychopath or have a moderate form of aspergers.

NO. I don't feel bad for myself. Im just curious.

I saw that you guys mentioned or helped several people in the " not sure what this could be" threads. Can't you tell me to check out a disorder??

no thats not what happens here. if you look at the bottom of every page you will see this notice....

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice,
diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.
Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.

what that means is this site is supposed to be like getting together with friends, not like seeing a doctor, therapist or other treatment provider.

for any kind of diagnosing you will need to call\ see your own or a doctors in your off the computer location.

[-jimi-]

I have a friend who is like this:

She doesn't like anything, she obsesses over it and wonders a lot why she doesn't like things or most people. There are faults with everything. Everything is "stupid".

She does not understand how friendship works. She don't understand reciprocity.

She feels God has given her a too rough deal when in fact God should have made her life easy and good. She obsesses about going to hell.

She does not really change for others but if she gets obsessed with anyone she can be really hyperactive and hyperfocused. When she wears the person down her obsession does not fade as they slip out of her life, her focus is intensely on certain people that should be there whenever she wants them.

She speaks and types too fast and messes up whenever she talk to people. They can't follow her train of thought. She jumps around over and over, she monologues at people just not to listen to any reply and not caring if the other part wants to stay on topic.

She can't focus on one thing for a long time. She can sometimes do one thing for a few hours, play with a new app or something. Else everything is boring and she stops doing things before she starts. She hates being told what to do. She goes to extremes to be able to not do a task, she must do it because she wants to, but she never wants to anyway.

She has a few friends, but she finds faults in them and obsesses about the faults. Also she gets very angry if the friend cannot be there when she wants the friend. Mostly, the friends finally leave.

Sound always is too loud for her. She is sensitive to loud sounds.

She laughs at things that are about other people getting hurt.

She never helps friends back, she uses them up, they are there for her, she doesn't even acknowledge they have their own lives outside her life.

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My friend is yet to be diagnosed, but I am pretty sure some of her issues are in the autistic spectrum despite her being superficially very outgoing, and goes into hibernation if she doesn't have people with her around the clock.

While the OP seems of intelligence and some understanding of other people's inner life, my friend is of low intelligence and has no true understanding of people's inner life, neither affective or cognitively.

If she had been in the UK, I am pretty sure she would have been diagnosed PDA.

I don't think my friend has any psychopathy, but she is very, very selfish and always puts herself first. I think that is partially because of some form or narcissism that I don't know how it fits in with all this, and partially because she is the center in her own autistic universe. Because she cannot feel other people's pain, they don't feel the same pain she does. She is fully convinced of that.

The main thing is IF there is something autistic going on, it doesn't HAVE to look like either classic aspergers or classic autism. There are many variants.

[eyesclosed]

I would say passive aggressive u have a lot of anger and get a kick out of making other people hurt. you will never admit to it because u are the victim u also love to be the center of attention omit details to make yourself look good when conflict arises

[TishaBuv]

The behaviors you described are unhealthy to yourself and to others, and you seem to know it. You seem to know right from wrong, and are aware you are doing wrong.