[BrowseAfterMidnight]

So I have had this feeling a few times before, the last time being a couple of days ago. It is more of an intrusive thought, perhaps. I just can't stop thinking about altering my consciousness in some way and getting feelings of euphoria (aka drugs). I think it is driven by feelings of emptiness, being unfulfilled, and maybe also boredom. The strange thing is, it's sort of hard to make these thoughts go away. I tried some exercising and it didn't work... So far, I have come to the conclusion that the way to fix this is to make my mind completely busy with some rewarding task, which is somewhat hard to do when my mind is so preoccupied with drugs.

As mentioned in the title, I have never done hard drugs before, just alcohol and smoking tobacco occasionally. It is strange that I have had the thought of doing hard drugs persist for an entire day multiple times in the past half a year. Does this mean anything or should I just get busier to make this go away? Could it be anxiety or something mood-related?

[eyesclosed]

I used drugs at the age of 12 often to fill the void of emptiness. Many don't realize that alcohol is a hard drug. It's socially accepted. Alcohol is a cleaner or disinfectant but when taken in small% gets you high and many people use it to cope with what you experience and often leads to other drug use. I can't drink and don't I can't get enough and also will seek other drugs. I have not used drugs in 25 yrs. Although I consider the medication I have to take a hard drug. You are just on the edge of entering in a hell of a problem if you use drugs too fill this void. The void will never get enough and you will become it's slave. I hope this will help deter your thoughts from drugs. I started a new hobby to help myself. I was also ordered by the court to go too a drug treatment center.

[Thunder Bow]

Depression and anxiety drives the need to do drugs. In your case, your thoughts may have more with self put down than the need for drugs.

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Originally Posted by BrowseAfterMidnight

I think it is driven by feelings of emptiness, being unfulfilled, and maybe also boredom.

You need to take care of this first. Interests? Hobbies? Maybe find a group of people who have similar interests (like meetup.com)? Or try a therapist to work through issues that leave you feeling this way?

Are you experiencing a general euphoria in conjunction with this? The need for risk taking is heightened with manic.