[ravencrow]

hello0 everyone I'm new here )
feeling very depressed again; have been for most of 14years anxiety too. i dont work much i over think very critical and always give up on things easily I'm highly sensitive.

any advice on self sabotage and manic depression would be helpful
im seeing a psych which is good i have a long way to go though, bad depression and sometimes suicidal thoughts dont help

thanks everyone for reading my current life

[pegasus]

Hello! Welcome to Psych Central! Well, you've joined the right place. Use the forums as a self-help tool, take from it what helps and discard the rest. You'll find sharing with others here helps, you are not alone. I'm glad you have some in real life support too, therapy is very helpful. Medication can be useful too. It's about building up a good toolbox of coping strategies for those times when you need. It's about finding out what things help you.

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC. You'll find lots of support here. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Sending big hugs.

Originally Posted by ravencrow

....feeling very depressed again; have been for most of 14years anxiety too. i dont work much i over think very critical and always give up on things easily I'm highly sensitive.

any advice on self sabotage and manic depression would be helpful...

Welcome!

I absolutely understand. Depression and Anxiety have led me to sabotaging that which is good in my life too. I have a history of doing so and 'running away' when the anxiety about things (usually fear of failure is the source). I have sabotaged my relationships, sabotaged careers, sabotaged what in hindsight may have become promising life changes. The ball is in place and beginning to roll regarding a major life change right now actually and I am frightened; frightened of ruining a great relationship and potentially bright future.

I am desperately trying to cope with this. Unlike prior occasions I have some new coping skills however and I have thus far headed off my instinct to 'burn and run'.

Rvencrow - Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) has helped a great deal. I have been working on my negative thinking patterns; like B&W thinking, fortune telling, and tendancy to catastophize.

Do you feel up to looking into this? It is a lot of work but can be helpful if you can get past doing the homework.

Things that have helped are 'Decatsrophic Thinking' worksheets and comparing negative thoughts. Namely, a hard look at whether or not our negative thinking is actually working for us.

I give you a big hug and hopeful encouragement.

[ravencrow]

thank you for your feedback i appreciate it; will start reading some books on cbt and self help