Am I a psychopath? Need help!!

Hey guys, I'm new to this forum thing so hopefully I'm in the right place! So basically about 6 months ago I had a panic attack after reading symptoms of schizophrenia and after this attack I felt like I wasn't in reality anymore and nothing was real. I then had about 2/3 more panic attacks where I went to the doctor and he said that I had PTSD. The reason he said this was two years ago my mum was brutally attacked by a schizophrenic person and he said that might of had an effect on me. I didn't think it did as I did cry for number of days but it didn't replay in my brain at all!
Anyway, for the next couple of months I had bad health anxiety where I thought I had schizophrenia and a brain tumour as I kept searching the symptoms to see if I had any of them.
About a month ago I was in New York on a field trip with university and I was in the queue for the Statue of Liberty when all of a sudden I had the thought of My sense of reality worsened straight after that and I just didn't know what I was thinking I was trying to resist so much!
So I kept checking google to see what was wrong with me and I guess I came across psychopth and now I feel like I am a psychopth cus I have no emotions and I just don't feel anything at all like not even love. I've been to see numerous doctors who said I have anxiety but I just don't believe them! I just have these thoughts about I don't want to but then I also question myself. Also every time I laugh or smile I question myself, am I really happy or just faking it? I just want my life back but I can't remember what it felt like previous to February, I think I'm going insane or I'm going to hurt somebody
Thank you for taking your time to read this, I know it's long just need some advice🙂

I'm guessing from what you've posted that you've been to a few psychiatrists. Have you tried talking this through with a therapist to get to the bottom of it? Maybe you are a psychopath. Maybe you're not. It could be a few different things. I think you should start with a pdoc evaluation and tell them what you've said here and then move on to a tdoc if needed. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I'm sure it's very unnerving for you. Good luck and best wishes.

I agree that you need to see a therapist. I'm sure it's upsetting for all these things to be happening to you and not know why. We aren't able to diagnose, but to my way of thinking a psychopath wouldn't be worried about being a psychopath. Please see a professional to get yourself helped out. We are here to support you in your treatment as fellow "strugglers" and friends, and we care. Let us know how things go. Okay?

I think the attack on your mother did have an affect on you, and you might feel guilty over it. Thus the intrusive thoughts. It was a very truamatic event for you. Please work with a Therapist/doctor on this. There are more feelings that you need to work on around this.

Yes I think does have a link! It's all stemmed from having this panic attack and being completely removing from reality! Thanks for replying🙂

Thank you! And yes I know I think it's all anxiety really but I'm just having a tough time right now which is like most people with anxiety! Yes I will definitely, I've had a mental health assessment twice and they've both diagnosed me with anxiety and OCD🙂

I have had two mental health assessments which have said that I have anxiety and OCD! I am always questioning reality and if things are real! Thanks for replying

Now it's time to get help for the anxiety and OCD, then. I know they make people's lives miserable.

I don't think a psychopath would be worried about being a psychopath, and you obviously do have emotions because you've gotten upset and anxious. Intrusive thoughts come in many forms and will likely get better if you get help for the anxiety.

Yes definitely! I just there's no hope and I'm stuck like this forever!

Yes I know it's just not going through my head and I'm getting such bad headaches from it! Yes definitely, thank you for replying! They are so bad

A psychopath has a callous disregard for others. A lack of empathy is a major marker. While you may have a disorder, rest easy that psychopathy is likely not it.

Yes I know but I'm having bad thoughts and I actually think I'm evil. Don't know what to do! Thanks for replying though I know I'm not a sociopath but just can't shake these thoughts