[zapatoes]

Does anyone understand how I’m feeling in that I’m determined and function pretty well in some ways regarding work, try to get out and do something social sometimes, but not always on weekends, but on the other hand feel devastated by past and recent events in life. Past military and high expectations always from parents has led to always striving to do well. Yet learning had mild TBI and mild learning disorder and social anxiety, just plain anxiety has led to some difficulties in living up to high expectations. Then stress of cousin passing (by suicide), dad passing this past June due to stage 4 cancer, and mom has recovered thankful from stage 1 cancer.

[avlady]

ive been through several funerals since i was even a child, i won't go into it as its too long a list for hows. I have TBI also, and schitzophrenia and bipolar along with GAD and other things. I am happy your mom recovered and sad to hear about your dad. Anxiety is killing me at this moment i can't sleep and its the mid of night. I am severely depressed right now. I was told that my mornings and nights are there worst because of my hypothyroidism.

[zapatoes]

Originally Posted by avlady

ive been through several funerals since i was even a child, i won't go into it as its too long a list for hows. I have TBI also, and schitzophrenia and bipolar along with GAD and other things. I am happy your mom recovered and sad to hear about your dad. Anxiety is killing me at this moment i can't sleep and its the mid of night. I am severely depressed right now. I was told that my mornings and nights are there worst because of my hypothyroidism.

Sorry you’re unable to sleep avlady. Anxiety is not fun that is for sure. Now I’m very tired and a couple of nights staying up too late doesn’t help. Want to write a letter to my dad who has passed. What would I say if I could have said it beforehand.

[eskielover]

Just a thought.....struggles can add up over the years especially when new things are piled on top of the old. It's like filling a glass of water & getting close to that last drop causing it to overflow.

Sometimes we just need to take a mental break before it becomes a "breakdown".

I was determined & driven to the point of burn out not just because of my career but everything that was adding up around me in life & things that weren't working. Got to the point I couldn't go back to work in Jan 1994. Then the Northridge earthquake hit where I lived & it waa the final straw wgen I did try once to go back to work.

Things do pile up in life & as you are aware of what they are. Therapy to help process some of the things but also self care to take a break & tey ti get yourself back into a balanced feeling.