I just need to rant... As Evening does best of course!

All my recent luck is running out again! It seems like this continual roller coaster of good and bad. Everything was going great, I got over my breakdown, found some ridiculously amazing friends, spoke to my father, got a job offer as a manager of a pet store, etc. etc. etc.
Now all my 'amazing' friends who I used to see a few times a week haven't contacted me or invited me out in months, they all go out and I never hear about it, my job turned out to be the biggest load of crap ever (let me just say it is a veeeery long story, so I decided to quit last week, only to find out that a staff member overheard talk that I was going to be fired), my father disowned me and accused me of some awful things that are both illogical and untrue, and now I'm losing all my hair from stress. I went to make an appointment with a specialist after being referred by my doctor, only to find out that one appointment will cost me $130. So I am 23 and on the verge of going bald from stress. I'm absolutely devastated about it, I don't know what to do. It just keeps falling out, I've lost so much that you can actually see it receding at the front. I used to get bullied in school and one thing they picked on quite a lot was my hair, so this is hitting me pretty hard. If I had my job still I'd be to the specialist in a flash. But now there is no way I can come up with that money.
I'm getting less and less motivated in life, I'm getting to a point where I just want it to hurry up and be over, I can't get excited about good things anymore because it never seems to last.

Anyway, I just needed to get that off my chest, I haven't really had a rant in a while...

Hi Evening,

I know when life takes a turn for the worst, which it will do on occasion, I try to find things to be positive about. Worrying about everything will make the stress worse and the hair loss more imminent.

Did you know even though you quit you may still be able to get unemployment if it was an unfair work environment or something to that effect. So look into that to help bring some money in.

Keep ranting too, I think it helps relieve stress.

Love and Hugs,
Tara

I was on those payments before my job, the problem is they need to investigate my claims of why I quit, and if they don't think my reasons are good enough or they don't believe me I could get penalised by having payments cut off for a few weeks/months, or have my payments cut off all together. If that happens, I won't be able to pay my rent and I'll have nowhere to go. Now I'm trying very hard not to stress too much about that because I was told that will probably not happen. All that goes through my head is there is a possibility, I think my mind has learnt through my life to be so prepared for the worst case scenario that it's always the only thing I focus on. It's become some a protective frame of mind for me. But it causes nothing but panic and stress.

whatever co-worker overheard that you were going to get fired needs to stand up with you so you can get unemployment. Is that a possibility? Try as hard as you can to find ways to relax right now. I know it is difficult but you have to keep your mind relaxed to prevent more problems from creeping in.

Love and Hugs,
Tara