Checking in ( How do you feel today)?

Hopeless and tired of the whole human thing. Are people ever going to grow up and just... advance as a race. When are we going to add the "e" to human.

A little more hopeful than the last couple days.

Bad day so far... I tthink my relationship is truely coming to an end, as much as I hate to admit it. We've been together for 2 years and I never thought it would end this way. We're constantly getting into arguments over anything. She can't get through my past mistakes and I'm running out of ways to show her I'm trying to change. She keeps telling me I'm not the girl she started dating, but everytime I try to share myself with her, I feel like I'm going to say something wrong, my anxiety builds, I start stumbling over my words and she either thinks I'm lying or I spit it out the wrong way and it offends her. I try to just relax around her, but the little things are starting fights now. She keeps telling me I just need to be like I was when we got together, but I'm so self-conscious about everything I do.. So worried that it will start another fight.. I've never been good with socializing, but it was so easy for us in the begining... I'm starting to plan moving out.. After my past bills are paid...

Feeling a little threatened by collection agencies. Feels like I will never get ahead.

i must be stressed out more so than what I realize, or tried to let go-- i just spent time crying due to not understanding a game... then realized it is just a game!! My brother, my work issues, and just other stress i think it is just time to cry right now, i get that way some times-- get very sensitive and have a good cry.... The other day I realized that I was rather compulsive with what I bought I should not be doing this.... think this sort of week my ex-t would had said-- rapid cycling with the ups, down, and other things mixed in; but IDK perhaps it is all PTSD and i am just handling it oddly and not well but well at times... sucky - I am so tired but have not been able to sleep well either, i feel awake when i lay down, but when I am up even just sitting i feel sick and tired but then feel healthy at the same time.... wtf Beauflow, wtf..

Today I feel isolated but am happy that I found this caring community online. I am trying to push through depression and reach out.

Today I feel isolated but am happy that I found this caring community online. I am trying to push through depression and reach out.

Welcome PlumApplePear

Teary eyed from gratitude. xx

My girlfriend of two years and I officially broke up. Its over. Neither one of up can take the fighting any longer. Have to figure out how to go about moving out tomorrow. I just hope I don't have a huge breakdown.... Can't wait... ={

((((Lost)))) I am sorry to learn of your breakup. It is very painful. One second at a time...be kind and gentle with yourself. Grieve the loss. Dont push yourself. Feel your feelings.

Breakups are heart-wrenching whatever the circumstances.

I wish you comfort and a peaceful night. Please post and let us know how you are doing. We are here.

Rose

Today, I am very depressed. I hate my life.

I know hugs don't make the pain go away but here is a hug unhappyguy.. hope things look up soon for you

Woke up with the worst headache I've ever had and went to babysitting my brother like I always do... I was covering my eyes and mom asked what was wrong so I told her and then her and dad went to arguing and she came and took over when I was giving bro his bath and said she can't get any help because all we do is complain. So now I'm sad and frustrated along with the headache. :P

A bit stressed due to financial issues, but happy to have my sons around me.

Somewhat fine but sometimes a little jealous because I see people posting some stuffs they bought online like they have no problem at all...

I am feeling a bit of procrastination. I am using PsychCentral as an excuse to not be starting my bread yet

((((Unhappyguy))))

i feel-- odd.. i am trying to be happy ---

let go of the past .. i wish i could-- seems others can do that so well, why can't i?

I think I will continue to use some distractions on PC and yep, do what i need to do today- which is half butt clean my apt again...

So my girlfriend and I talked things over and were going to try to stay friends and see if we can work things out. But it just seems like we don't understand eachother anymore... She just told me that I'm a "serial killer waiting to happen" because I get turned on by gorry movies, but I didn't cry over "Beaches". Its not that I didn't like it; its a very good movie. I just don't like watching chick flicks because I don't cry. I haven't since like 8th grade when I sort of desensitized myself to movies so I could watch the horror flick my guy friends were watching so I wouldn't have nightmares. Most chick flicks I like, girls just get pissed because I don't go through a box of tissues; like 'cause I'm a girl, not crying is a mortal sin. My girl use to get all that stuff about me. Now I'm a freak? Thats what made her different from every other girl; she didn't look at me like that.. So I still don't know if things are going to work out... Don't even know if I want them to or not, any more...

I guess fine, washing a dress i just found, and a throw blanket, got the house to myself today.

Somewhat okay - my tongue started twitching yesterday -- that's been bothering me the most.

So far so good. I was able to check off 4 things on my to do list Also, I ran into my neighbor and we had a great chat. It was so nice to catch up and to see her in good health. It really lifted my spirits to see her doing so well. She is so much healthier...and seems truly happy. That made me feel happy. She is a great girl

I'm feeling pretty bad today. Alone, scared, guilty, confused and very sad. I have been working outside in 100 degree weather trying desperately to not think about my situation and get a sense of accomplishment from having a nice yard. Yard is way to big to show any improvement for one days work so now am discouraged 'cause I don't have it in me to keep working on it. I have been trying to ignore the continued pain in my shoulder for 3 days now. Aspirin is not helping. My husband has been telling me for several days, possibly weeks, I've lost track of time, to go away and leave him alone. He has been laying in the bed for two weeks and I am trying to do his chores and mine. Stress got the best of me a few nights ago and I blew up at him and told him to get off the pity pot and help me around here. OMG!! There is really no words to describe his loathing for me right now. I am not suppose to talk to him but I did tell him I probably didn't handle it well and that I apologize for blowing up at him that's as far as I got before I realized it was going to be another argument so I shut up. Sorry for the long reply, I started typing and it just came out. Basically, just another crappy day. Thanks for asking. Finding the site has been my only lifeline.

Somewhat alright but the heat is just making my mood a little cranky...