Checking in ( How do you feel today)?

Feeling lazy today, eating too much. I got a little done on the house, I guess that's a positive.

tired. need sleep.

I feel sick today

I had disturbing dreams so I am feeling "off" today

Shoulder and back out of order did to much yesturday. But garden did get cleanup from rain damage. Had on good chore day,chill the next couple a days.........

Hip and lower back are better...still twinging a little but I am more productive and getting my bedroom gutted out and laundry done. Going slowly, but making progress.

Still lots of pain, the kind that consumes my life so nothing else gets done and Sir(cat) knows to give me space.

Back pains, lacking sleep but all right everyday!

Bad sleep last night so very tired today.

This morning started out crappy. My girlfriend and I had fought all night and then all morning. I think I finally figured out my issue with us though. She's a Leo, I'm a Libra. We were so good in the begining because I balenced her. My self esteem went down and I stopped without realizing it. So my new goal is to keep awear of how she's feeling and either back off or pick up slack as needed. It shouldn't be too hard, I did iit very well in the begining.

I'm doing well today. I didn't sleep well last night so am very tired! Despite that, I had a good day at work with my second graders and survived the first Monday of the school year! I also think I'm feeling well in part because I went to a MI support group last night for the second time and am excited about beginning to connect there.

yesterday visited a friend distracted me. made me focus on tasks. but returned and felt used. a bit. today slept too much. I had diarrhea yesterday. better now.

I feel pretty good today! I hope to continue this "high" streak!

Starting to calm down, and breath.

I actually feel ok today

Emotionally well...physically...so-so.

First day in weeks I haven't drank, I feel like ****.

mixed day-- toooo much to write... I am frustrated, i want to go on a binger but i wont- I can't- I can't lose it all with a foolish act like that.

I wish I could have more faith in me-- I wish that either 1) people would look at my hard work, or 2) That I Could get over my fear and get back into school to get a degree...



it will be ok-- running AGAIN On 4 hours of SLEEP I Am so Frustrated with a lot right now.... with myself... failure! i keep reminding myself to be kind to me-- but how can i with what worthless i have done-- i keep saying don't be negative to me--- try to find a solution-- I DO find solutions but restrictions are there--- i wish, i wish i could just find where i belong for a job- what I want to do-- i don't even know that.. how could i not?

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Amazing what writing can do-- I cried, then wrote in my journal of my frustration rant.... then some solutions- used the fact or opinion stuff - that seems to help me a little. I talked to my S/O again and told him about the cookie comment-- Ya know I took that way too seriously and too harsh on myself.. and i ended up stuffing my face after he left - emotional eating -- what good does this do? nothing-- and he was just calling me a cookie theft due to I took a cookie (Free cookie but cookie).

I am not worthless I just have been working through some issues as life has been going by... I need to find what i may want to do in life i think it comes down to -- where do i fit in this world?
Also my S/O told me clarification on something I was worried about with work-- part of it is ok-- My hard work was not torn down completely i guess--- he had mentioned some things that were not valid which i flipped my lid and went on a rampage inmy head about
I have taken a shower
still no sleep but at least i am clean

I had to drag myself out this morning. I've been feeling full of lead all day.

I took a huge leap back last night... My girlfriend and I fought all day long, and I ended up walking out of the house. Before I did, things got hateful and I said I never should have lived past sixteen, and her responce was "well, you didn't try hard enough", implying my many suicide attempts at that time. So when I left, I found a beer bottle, smashed it, and gave myself a good gash across my arm in hopes of going to sleep and not waking up. But obviously, I've failed at it again. I'm at work right now. So things should be okay for a while.... I feel like a total faliure...

Not horrible

I'm feeling pretty neutral right about now. I could probably go either way today. I hope its in a positive direction, but only time can tell.

today for me has been just like any other day,

sit around and try and get by

whatever....

It has taken me long enough to realize...doh....aching body....three days of humidity and rain....joint pain!!! DUH!!! Rain....JOINT PAIN. I can be rather dense at times lmao