Checking in ( How do you feel today)?

My daughter has been diagnosed with autism and selective mutism today
Feel like I have let her down.

Have a hangover from pdoc yesterday. Have been in and out of the bed all day. No motivation and no hope or so it feels.

I feel sad and can't sleep. I have been crying on an off. This is rare for me so I guess I need to release my sadness. It's deep. The rain hasn't helped my mood. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow.

I feel depressed, tired and lonely.. I wish I can sleep for once without crying..

Tired and anxious

today another mix day- I was really chipper this morning which was the end of my day-- I even had motivation- Going to lose weight* motivation and a plan... then I slept four hours (i need to sleep more but IDK if i will), did something that my cross brain says 'bad' - I can't talk about it on PC but I am talking to my S/O on it.. which is helpful. I am lucky to have him , If I did not have him I would have no one to talk to because I just can't take some's opinion on the manner due to it is a wound of mine, and i feel poked at rather than helped with by others on it... so it is a good thing to talk to my S/O

this is a slip of my positive thinking the other day-- It is expected, but I must remember-- this is part of what needs to change in my thinking that has been so deeply wired in me. I think I will go write again since I have cried, and started to get a little bit of a better out look at the moment.

Double-relieved and validated. Calmer and clearer. No more "making myself do" anything in my personal life.

little bit motivated. slept good, maybe too much. still got up during the night too many times but was able to return to sleep. did not do much cleaning up today.

Neighbor posted a letter through my door telling us to keep the noise down?????
WTF??? Made no noise, Last night we were watching TV and that was it Anyway it seems I annoy everyone lately.

((((Tink)))) whas up with that?

Badly depressed again, ugh

was cycling a lot, now i just feel horrible.

for Tink: Maybe they are mistaken---and the noise is coming from elsewhere? I don't know.

You don't irritate me; I think you're wonderful.

Today, I am super-burned out feeling. It might be cat scratch fever. Hands are badly injured after retrieving boy kitty (that stealthy little monster!), after he made an escape out of the front door last night (the slippery rascal). He didn't mean to hurt me--- he apologized for an hour, afterwards, with his head hung down and trying to kiss my hands---but the cuts are pretty bad.

So I'm being a lazy thing today and making no apologies for it.

Exhausted. My head is aching and I'm emotionally drained.

I got a lot done in am but hoping to do as well this afternoon.

Been putting in a lot of hours. Couldn't find instructions I wrote down for a new document I have to print out daily at work. Found it at home just now so I will print it out tomorrow (sigh of relief.)

Well, its been a while since I posted. Things have been pretty crappy today. My girlfriend and I fought from the moment we woke up because I forgot to turn my 5am alarm off. She kicked me out of bed and I ended up taking a klonopin around 6am, and sleeping the rest of the night on the cold floor. I was suppose to wake up at 8 for work at 9, but didn't get up until 9, so I was late for work and my girl was pissed that I took that shift. So I came home at 4 to even more arguing. Luckily she had to work tonight, so she left at 5:30 and won't be back until morning. I'm just so tired of fighting with her. She keeps telling me that our family isn't important to me because I work random shifts. So I finally broke down and told my boss when I can and can't work. I just hope my boss doesn't get pissed at me for it... I love my job. I don't want to lose it. I don't know. I'm just over emotional right now... Feel like crying...

Pretty good, but wish it wasn't so late. I need to start going to bed earlier.

feeling okay, i suppose

despite the fact i didon't even get the slightest bit of rest last night.

was up all night watching the new bat man film

Don't feel much of anything actually. Not sure how to take that.

Crappy. Completely furious; still stewing over yesterday's blowup at my SBTX.

Very down and exhausted.

I feel as if I took an overdose of something. My head is full of fuzz; and that's not good, because I have much too much to do.

But my mood seems alright.

Lots of joint pain in lower back and hip but I am sure that with tylenol, rest, stretches, and heat, it will resolve itself.

... ate fried green tomato's at supper, HUGH mistake.
delish but stomach killin' me.