Daily Comments #6- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

I got all my forms done and faxed in. I hope I keep my funding and everything is done right. I stayed jittery until I got it all done than then I was exhausted. I really wanted to shut down and rock.

The smily for anxious is the same for worried and nervous. Very appropriate as they all tend to feel the same...

I gota do something, not quite sure what, or who to trust really, but this is nuts already - but......
Well, whatever, something has got to give somewhere, that's all there is to it.
And not it is not all my own fault!

Wow! had no idea it would be so hardd to find a one bedroom apt. that's decent in a friggin college town that ha dozens of apt. complexes. beads is getting frustrated and scaired. hope we don't end up homeless!

I'm not sure why I come here. I'm not sure I want to know.

Here it seems the one bedrooms are more expensive than the 2......like I need a roommate or something.....I see a one bed and a 2 bed around the same price...shouldn't the one bedrooms be less????? I mean serioisly

OMG are you my twin??

They take forever to heal! I always hate the waiting. I hope yours looks awesome!

today i just feel like i am done.

I sit at my desk... and i think to myself- i am just done. I don't know if i can go through another year at this place, with the really unneeded stress that people put one another through.

Because you love us, George, and we love you too, and you can't get enough of us.

I've just come to the harsh realization that my oldest daughter has many, many of the same issues I do; it's almost like looking in the mirror, and the guilt that goes from knowing I probably caused most of them.

I feel void of opinions and personality.. all I do is in complain. I suck. I'm apathetic and don't feel like engaging in my interests.

That could be triggering to some.

To cats who peruse the site? My calico isn't very thrilled, quite honestly.

About a week ago the dealership I bought my car from called to offer me a free oil change since I haven't been there in awhile for service. My car was a little over due for oil. So, it worked out perfectly! I noticed while I was there that the service manager reminded of a car salesman trying to get me to get extra service done. It was great leaving there paying absolutely nothing! Great dealership!

The nursing home bill, the house insurance and land taxes are all due at once plus I still owe the well guy and dentist.

I went to the store after work this morning.....
I was talking to myself trying to remember what I needed...
a stock guy saw and I think heard me because he looked at me.
I said good morning to him.
He said it back and asked if I was finding everything ok.
Told him yeah, just trying to remember what I needed, and did a, little thing I do with my hand like a fluttering motion with my hand from my head outwards (i probably made a face too with it).
That made him chuckle and he said oh ok with a smile.

Come on now - this is ridiculous - WTF is going on, and how in the h*!l do I fix it now!?

Will see how tomorrow goes...

I am really beat tonight... Can we go ahead and start the weekend?

I just slept 6+ hours. I think this is what a zombie feels like ...that's a lot for me. My body might be going into shock.

Are you going to be up all night after your long nap?

Yes, probably, Argh. Luckily I have been streaming Bones on Netflix so I just lie here and watch that. I also took some photos today so I can work on those if I feel like it. It's frustrating, though. But I couldn't stay awake any longer...so much easier to sleep during the day!

I feel like I'm slipping on this whole positivity thing....I don't understand why its so easy to fall back into negativity yet so hard to keep positive and carry the right attitude....I make stupid decisions......pbbtt sigh....
I know its not the end of the world. I have lots to be grateful for yet I'll sit here and mentally bash myself then do something I shouldn't out of utter desperation. And its funny the person in my head that I daydream about and when I sit here with thoughts I don't act like that but out in the real world I act like a complete mess of a person when I'm amongst other people.....like I feel the need to be someone else even though I don't seem to know who the heck I am to begin with...try to hard to be awesome....or say things I think people wanna hear.....raaaaaarrrrrrrrr.......